Embrace the high.

[Ganj]

I've been off and on smoking weed for the past six-plus months. Whenever I smoke now, it just isn't the same as I remember. My mind is everywhere! I can't concentrate on anything and I can't seem to get out of my head. Perhaps it's the people I hang around, or it's just me? Whatver it is, it's keeping me from enjoying marijuana.

People are fucking with me and I'm not liking it one bit.

[grinthenbearit]

pherhaps you should go somewhere alone and meditate on what you want......then take small steps to help make that a reality.

New friends?

New hobby or enviroment?

[3rdEyeVision]

your thinking about it too much, you have to just go with it more....pretend your on mush kinda.

[soxsuk6432]

Just chill dude it's your pysche just mellow out. You know what the best way to mellow out is...

[cygnustaxt]

yeah whenever i think of stuff like that i just remind myself to go with the high, let it take me where it wants to. If I focus on it, i'll end up feeling kinda sick and just crappy all together. Just let the high take you wherever it wants to go. Also, if there's music in the backround, i'll just focus in on that and i'll end up being really chill. Music always helps me.

[Ganj]

A friend of mine told me to focus on one thing and keep it in mind. The world is going to fuck with you regardless, but you have to maintain. It's not me to be a prisoner of my thoughts, but as of recently I've been feeding the negative energy. I understand my friends and what they're trying to do. Even if they're fucking with me, it's just that...I can't imagine they enjoy any part of it, especially having me aside them freaking out. I keep the thoughts bottled up, trying to make sense of it. The demons seem to seek me in sobriety too.

I have a choice to make:

1. Escape and leave my sorrow for another time.
2. Embrace the high and enjoy it.

The choice should be obvious, right? Perhaps narrowing it down to a simple question would help in times of suspicion, distrust, and fear? I don't want to suffer anymore or create suffering for anyone else. I want to be able to hang out with my friends and get stoned and enjoy it like I used to.

A person calling themself your friend wouldn't hang out with you all day long unless they were actually your friend, right? So why do I insist on thinking that I'm just there for humiliation? Why does the world have to glare it's shameful eye upon me? Why do I have to look at myself through this eye? For too long have I considered dropping my friends and moving on. For too long have I come running back realizing my fault. And for too long have I not caught on. I'm not going to quit and runaway. The world has a cruel way of re-embedding the problems you escape and not confront. I have to deal with this now or it'll be my demise.

The source is my mind. The cure is my concious.
I can't thank you all enough for your input. It's not your problem, but you insist on helping. In my book that makes you all friend. Input is encouraged and appreciated here. Thank you all.

[Ap0c4lyPtIcF4t3]

you are being over-critical and also creating your own misery, possibly sub-consciously. Althought i could be wrong, wouldnt be the first time. If you are up to it i would suggest dabbling in magic mushrooms once you are comfortable with the meditation you are reading about. Most people do not see that psilocybin/psilocin are healing tools for your mind body and soul among other things :) What you experience during a trip is based on what you seek. If you seek nothing when you take them then that is what you recieve, something random(good or bad). If you truely seek insight and wisdom then that is exactly what you will recieve. What happens within 30-60 mins of a mushroom trip is what people are trying to acheive through meditation but could take someone half their life to accomplish that level of meditation. You get there in 30-60 mins which is why it is so easy to get thrown off course during the trip and completely ruin the reason why you took them in the first place. This is where meditation comes in, once you are comfortable with meditating and understand it you can use mushrooms and meditation hand in hand to recieve the insight you seek.

I dont really know many sources for information on this it is all based on personal experience. For starters stick with the meditation and then go from there....

[LIP]

I belive its all in your head, try and get a new hobby...

[Ap0c4lyPtIcF4t3]

forgot to say that with some sativa/indica hybrids my mind instantly scatters into a 1000 places. I find that a good indica solves this and although pure sativa is hard to find that it isnt as confusing when it is pure and not mixed.