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chisme
03-10-2006, 09:01 PM
ive decided im finished im done with it all this is just a struggle a long assed one its total bullshit ive come round to idea that im actualy goin to try and blow my brain off the scale.
im talking the biggest drug binge ever. ive got 5 months 2 save up every peice of money i got and im gonna buy all the drugs i can lay my mitts on.
so far
weed - easy
acid - on its way from bournmouth
cocaine- down the road flat n0. 5
mdma - got 20 mitsibushi;'s one the way from vauxhall
mushrooms - lyberty caps a friend brought from amsterdam
salvia - x20 1 gram
what else can i put on the list im basicly doin fear and loathing in las vegas but i dont plan on coming back this is it for me ive come to the state of mind where my future bleak. so im thinking what if i just tinged out major? like i got so mashed i never came back?
long story very short
i fucked up ...not just i fucked something up I mean i fucked my whole future up over years of abuse to a certain area of my body and i will never have enough money to fix. so this is sorta my last stand.
PS. no its not my dick or balls
Euphoric
03-10-2006, 09:07 PM
Wow..
I bet you cant eat all of that at once.
Im so jealous though..
I couldnt manage to score any of that :(
Well except salvia of course :D
w4terb0ng
03-10-2006, 09:14 PM
what did you fuck up then?
you better get some mescaline, some heroin, some meth, some crack, um... ETHER!!! i don't know what else. use your imagination. drink some bleach or something. eat some rat poison.
highjinx
03-10-2006, 09:20 PM
he got gang banged:(
damn!:stoned:
friendowl
03-10-2006, 09:48 PM
you need some sherm [pcp]
also some rock like 2 8 balls
and right before check out time
a nice godly dose of some black [heroin]
friendowl
03-10-2006, 09:48 PM
send slimzee to me
Reefer Rogue
03-10-2006, 09:53 PM
Al kee hall
chisme
03-10-2006, 10:14 PM
i dunno where to get any mescalene or ether i might be able to get sum im not gonna drink bleach i need real drugs.and lets just say i didnt take care of myself as well as i should have when i was younger.
chisme
03-10-2006, 10:15 PM
my dads the pisshead
stangle12
03-10-2006, 10:20 PM
DMT mother fucer. You aint shit unless you try that. look for 5-MEO, DMT you can buy it online.
rhino44
03-10-2006, 10:33 PM
just do a shitload of heroin if u must that would be the easiest way to kill yourself with drugs. im assuming that is what u r gonna do. your deff. gonna lose your mind if u take all the other shit and survive but goodluck your gonna feel good for about 5 minutes before u go comatose.
w4terb0ng
03-10-2006, 10:36 PM
i didn't take care of myself like i should have either. but that doesn't make me wanna smoke crack and shoot heroin and die and shit.
what's so bad?
if you're gonna kill yourself, why do you care if we know what it's about? you'll be dead anyway.
TakeFlight
03-10-2006, 10:39 PM
DMT mother fucer. You aint shit unless you try that. look for 5-MEO, DMT you can buy it online.
point me in the direction!
chisme
03-10-2006, 11:36 PM
i didn't take care of myself like i should have either. but that doesn't make me wanna smoke crack and shoot heroin and die and shit.
what's so bad?
if you're gonna kill yourself, why do you care if we know what it's about? you'll be dead anyway.
i cant think of a good reason to answer that plz guys dont flame me right now my minds all over the place and half of what im saying isnt comeing out right but i just needed to write that stuff to face up to it seeing it in plane view like that just ...confirm something in my mind no i mean ..look i just had to write that some where i knew at least one person would look because i cant say shit liek this to peole i know because well i geuss in the end im weak but i cant do it man i cant face up and this was just one step closer to facing the reality of who i am and who i turned out to be.
im sorry forget this i feel so stupid for posting that shit^^ i dont wanna die but there must be something better . shit im nearly bawling just saying this because i know whats coming soon one day the herb even wont be able to numb a pain im getting warned of everyday i see people on t.v getting this problem fixed everyday and the result is prestine but im just too broke and im a fucking stoner dont take this as a trichome type thread im not insinuating you charity i just want...i dunno i wanan win the fucking lottery so i can just go to a center and get this sorted...put to sleep and sorted while im asleep wake up and its done....i know its the weak looking way but you have to beleive im so scared of where im gonna have to go...but its comeing and im SCARED SHITLESS its just a countdown right now
Das Boot
03-10-2006, 11:44 PM
Just go to the hospital anyway and rack up a massive amount of debt. Then you can live a normal happy life and eventually pay it off. Or just declare bankruptcy.
w4terb0ng
03-10-2006, 11:47 PM
jesus dude. i got problems that if not properly taken care of, will potentially kill me. i can't afford to have the shit fixed either. i'm not flaming you. just curious as to what could be so bad that you talk all this shit about killing yourself and so on.
chisme
03-10-2006, 11:51 PM
Just go to the hospital anyway and rack up a massive amount of debt. Then you can live a normal happy life and eventually pay it off. Or just declare bankruptcy.
can i declare bankrupcy if i dont own a buisness? and what consiquences (sp?) would i get?
and w4terbong sheer embarrassment
spewf
03-10-2006, 11:52 PM
Buy hell an 8ball of crystal meth... Hell yeah, thats the shit
chisme
03-10-2006, 11:53 PM
i dont know thing can just build up in a persons mind when they r constantly reminded.
3 Sheets To The Wind
03-11-2006, 12:35 AM
Get some mescaline.. ayahuasca, crack, heroin, crystal meth (ice), some DMT, bit o' caffiene.... y'know, the usual suspects :D
highjinx
03-11-2006, 12:37 AM
lol you could get some poppers!..................and just drink it!
3 Sheets To The Wind
03-11-2006, 12:40 AM
lol you could get some poppers!..................and just drink it!
Smoke a cig with them on, so sweet tasting lol :D.. and it burns :D lol.
highjinx
03-11-2006, 12:44 AM
Smoke a cig with them on, so sweet tasting lol :D.. and it burns :D lol.
:D a few of my mates stayed with me a few weeks ago and one fell asleep,
we held the poppers under his nose for ages then woke him up! lol
he was fukin spaced!haha:dance: :D :D :D :dance:
rhino44
03-11-2006, 12:46 AM
take a massive bongblast of crack. atleast an 8 ball. if your heart doesnt explode in 15 seconds repeat.
highjinx
03-11-2006, 12:47 AM
take a massive bongblast of crack. atleast an 8 ball. if your heart doesnt explode in 15 seconds repeat.
LMAO!:D
chisme
03-11-2006, 12:54 AM
thanks allot.
rhino44
03-11-2006, 01:15 AM
im just playin dude. i hope you find some help and dont kill yourself. things could always be worse and somebody has gone through exactly the same thing you have or are going through, whatever that may be.be a man and deal with it. killing yourself is a very selfish act. u will be damaging all the people in your life that care about you.
Trichocereus Panza
03-11-2006, 02:06 AM
chisme, I think you are really scaring some of us bro. I'm glad you realize you don't really want to kill yourself; this probably is not the place for you to talk about serious shit as you can see from some of these other posts.
I can't believe people are actually giving recommendations on how to OD and making jokes, how about some real sympathy people. I can't even tell when they're joking or not. It just makes me scared and sad when we're dealing with real human lives and someone's deep personal feelings and we see people responding like this.
I can see you're embarrassed about whatever it is, but maybe it isn't as bad as you think. Fuck dude, do you really think we're judging you? I'm not anyway. Just be calm and think things over, maybe save your money for the medical attention you seem to need/want rather than drugs (although perhaps a GOOD strong experience or two can give you some clarity and perspective to think things through better...)
Have you ever heard of Iboga/Ibogaine? People have used this strong psychedelic to cure themselves of all kinds of unwanted addictions, by allowing them to look back on their lives objectively and calmly. It's possible to see what you've done wrong in the past without judging yourself or thinking it's too late to change. It sounds like you mostly just need a clean slate, THEN you can deal with your problems. So maybe a therapeutic voyage IS in order, just make sure you come back from it, and hopefully you'll re-emerge in better health. okay?
I don't know your situation so this may be all wrong but I hope it works out better than you think.
TakeFlight
03-11-2006, 02:09 AM
chisme, I think you are really scaring some of us bro. I'm glad you realize you don't really want to kill yourself; this probably is not the place for you to talk about serious shit as you can see from some of these other posts.
I can't believe people are actually giving recommendations on how to OD and making jokes, how about some real sympathy people. I can't even tell when they're joking or not. It just makes me scared and sad when we're dealing with real human lives and someone's deep personal feelings and we see people responding like this.
I can see you're embarrassed about whatever it is, but maybe it isn't as bad as you think. Fuck dude, do you really think we're judging you? I'm not anyway. Just be calm and think things over, maybe save your money for the medical attention you seem to need/want rather than drugs (although perhaps a GOOD strong experience or two can give you some clarity and perspective to think things through better...)
Have you ever heard of Iboga/Ibogaine? People have used this strong psychedelic to cure themselves of all kinds of unwanted addictions, by allowing them to look back on their lives objectively and calmly. It's possible to see what you've done wrong in the past without judging yourself or thinking it's too late to change. It sounds like you mostly just need a clean slate, THEN you can deal with your problems. So maybe a therapeutic voyage IS in order, just make sure you come back from it, and hopefully you'll re-emerge in better health. okay?
I don't know your situation so this may be all wrong but I hope it works out better than you think.
you know a good place to read up on this iboga/ibogaine, i would look it up myself but i dont trust just anything google spews out at me
Nochowderforyou
03-11-2006, 02:10 AM
Mix LSD with magic mushrooms.
I did that only once in my life, and the walls were breathing. In, out, like a beating chest, with light sounds of breathing. Every lit smoke I saw had a bright orange tracer that went on for ft' at a time. I was fucked, in another world. The floor was at eye level as I was sitting in my chair. I heard sizzling bacon but there was no one in my kitchen. And when I misplaced something, it would turn up hours later, in the same place I had put it, and a place I had chekced a thousand times before. :p
I remeber that trip like it was yersterday. Mix the 2, you won't be sorry.
Trichocereus Panza
03-11-2006, 02:17 AM
you know a good place to read up on this iboga/ibogaine, i would look it up myself but i dont trust just anything google spews out at me
http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/ibogaine/ibogaine.shtml
Ibogaine is the extract form of the traditional African plant Iboga.
I haven't read much myself, but erowid is always the first place I check, they are pretty reliable.
dark0ne
03-11-2006, 02:31 AM
man, i have been there. My feance dumped me and lost our kid do to a crack addiction i wasn't aware of. So i locked myself in my room and sniffed 2 60$ bags of heroin, after i ate a whole 80 oxicotin. after laying on the floor waiting to die for what seamed like an eternaty. I thought about my mother's face crying when she found out how i died. i thought about my friends and how they would react. so i pulled myself off the floor, and after a few hot coffies i sat down and evaluated my situation. I helped myself get off dope (well weed helped to). i kicked the worst drug to be addicted to, by myself. Don't live life in other people's eyes. live it through your own. There is a hell of alot of good shit still left on this planet, you just need a vacation. away from drugs and work and people. just you. then you will see.
chisme
03-11-2006, 10:34 AM
chisme, I think you are really scaring some of us bro. I'm glad you realize you don't really want to kill yourself; this probably is not the place for you to talk about serious shit as you can see from some of these other posts.
I can't believe people are actually giving recommendations on how to OD and making jokes, how about some real sympathy people. I can't even tell when they're joking or not. It just makes me scared and sad when we're dealing with real human lives and someone's deep personal feelings and we see people responding like this.
I can see you're embarrassed about whatever it is, but maybe it isn't as bad as you think. Fuck dude, do you really think we're judging you? I'm not anyway. Just be calm and think things over, maybe save your money for the medical attention you seem to need/want rather than drugs (although perhaps a GOOD strong experience or two can give you some clarity and perspective to think things through better...)
Have you ever heard of Iboga/Ibogaine? People have used this strong psychedelic to cure themselves of all kinds of unwanted addictions, by allowing them to look back on their lives objectively and calmly. It's possible to see what you've done wrong in the past without judging yourself or thinking it's too late to change. It sounds like you mostly just need a clean slate, THEN you can deal with your problems. So maybe a therapeutic voyage IS in order, just make sure you come back from it, and hopefully you'll re-emerge in better health. okay?
I don't know your situation so this may be all wrong but I hope it works out better than you think.
i dont know what to thin anymore everytime i feel i might be able to get on with it and move on onto something better and the next thing is allways hiding around the corner to smack u bang in the face when you think things are finally looking up its just bollox why doesnt anything good happen anymore? im in a hole and everytime i manage to climb halfway out the gravedigger nammed life piles more dirt down on top of me. it just got worse when i woke up i received a letter form my ex-company saying they wanna claim back £1300 they lent me for a laptop...its like fuckinging hell u just fired me and took all my wages how do u expect me to pay £1300? i got 7 days now ive gotts go citizens advice ......you see what i mean everyday i wake up and theres nothing but shit waiting to ruin another day . why dont i ever get good news? this past year has been to shit .. my mothers liver cancer had to get re-examimed because the docter see';s sumthing weird and if uvb ever heard those words you know wierd can mean so bad ive only had 2 job interviews since i got fired 3 weeks ago and they laughed at me because i was so young looking. i even used my last £10 to get the to the interview and when i arrived they said i was too young even thou they called me from my cv on the net saying my age...how fucked is that? i dunno what to do now i can only hope the citizens advice burea can help me out if not.....well i dunno this is my whole question when is too much too much?
chisme
03-11-2006, 10:39 AM
man, i have been there. My feance dumped me and lost our kid do to a crack addiction i wasn't aware of. So i locked myself in my room and sniffed 2 60$ bags of heroin, after i ate a whole 80 oxicotin. after laying on the floor waiting to die for what seamed like an eternaty. I thought about my mother's face crying when she found out how i died. i thought about my friends and how they would react. so i pulled myself off the floor, and after a few hot coffies i sat down and evaluated my situation. I helped myself get off dope (well weed helped to). i kicked the worst drug to be addicted to, by myself. Don't live life in other people's eyes. live it through your own. There is a hell of alot of good shit still left on this planet, you just need a vacation. away from drugs and work and people. just you. then you will see.
thats it everytime it gets to that point all i can think of is my mum and then i feel pathetic because i know its the loser way out the fools escape. but then it remind me of why im doin it and it makes me feel worse because i never thought it would be like this ...i dunno i dont wanna be a fucking loser but i need to get out.
Don't live life in other people's eyes. live it through your own. There is a hell of alot of good shit still left on this planet, you just need a vacation. away from drugs and work and people. just you. then you will see. thats the only thing that has kept me goin for a long time now but its not working no more
chisme
03-11-2006, 10:51 AM
chisme, I think you are really scaring some of us bro. I'm glad you realize you don't really want to kill yourself; this probably is not the place for you to talk about serious shit as you can see from some of these other posts.
I can't believe people are actually giving recommendations on how to OD and making jokes, how about some real sympathy people. I can't even tell when they're joking or not. It just makes me scared and sad when we're dealing with real human lives and someone's deep personal feelings and we see people responding like this.
I can see you're embarrassed about whatever it is, but maybe it isn't as bad as you think. Fuck dude, do you really think we're judging you? I'm not anyway. Just be calm and think things over, maybe save your money for the medical attention you seem to need/want rather than drugs (although perhaps a GOOD strong experience or two can give you some clarity and perspective to think things through better...)
Have you ever heard of Iboga/Ibogaine? People have used this strong psychedelic to cure themselves of all kinds of unwanted addictions, by allowing them to look back on their lives objectively and calmly. It's possible to see what you've done wrong in the past without judging yourself or thinking it's too late to change. It sounds like you mostly just need a clean slate, THEN you can deal with your problems. So maybe a therapeutic voyage IS in order, just make sure you come back from it, and hopefully you'll re-emerge in better health. okay?
I don't know your situation so this may be all wrong but I hope it works out better than you think.
thank you for notflaming i geuss i just find it easier to say this stuff online because i havent gotta look at you guys in the face and i can fire it out better then i will ever beable to say face to face . i cant do that where im from im scared real scared because im falling down on my own and no ones putting a hand out. no one cares these days if youve got a problems your alone with it and if its too big for me to sort on my own im fucked. and now even after years of warnings i alowed myself to go down and little road that now im regretting i didnt listen im not a druggy or alcholic but thats what i mean epople just dont understand there are other things that are worse to live with.
Trichocereus Panza
03-11-2006, 04:23 PM
thank you for notflaming i geuss i just find it easier to say this stuff online because i havent gotta look at you guys in the face and i can fire it out better then i will ever beable to say face to face . i cant do that where im from im scared real scared because im falling down on my own and no ones putting a hand out. no one cares these days if youve got a problems your alone with it and if its too big for me to sort on my own im fucked. and now even after years of warnings i alowed myself to go down and little road that now im regretting i didnt listen im not a druggy or alcholic but thats what i mean epople just dont understand there are other things that are worse to live with.
man i didn't think you were an addict or anything, in fact i was pretty sure that wasn't the problem... you are right that we cant really understand though, like i can't step into your life and live it for a day or anything.
But what you say about "no one's putting a hand out"... life isn't always like that, it's not true that no one cares these days, I fucking care I just wish there was more any of us could do. Thanks for talking about it though man, cause you need to hear other people's perspectives on things. You also need to find someone to talk to face to face who will be kind and understanding, I think when you're embarrassed it's harder to believe that people will truly care. I think you know none of your problems right now will last forever, I mean I myself feel like life is too much to handle all the time, it's just a difficult time of life for me, but eventually if you just keep going forward things DO get better. And the more positive attitude you manage to have NOW, the easier it will be to get through the whole thing.
As much as our problems now are worse, when we get suicidal we're still in some ways just like those poor shy teenagers who kill themselves b/c they think social life in high school means everything. Please don't think that a temporary problem means everything.
BUZz UK
03-11-2006, 04:54 PM
chisme, you seem a safe geezer mate, don't be too rash about things...maybe telling us what's goin down would help, i don't think anyone here would judge you..i mean, fuck, we've had people asking if you can smoke insence ffs...we all have times where it goes wrong..i was fucked up for a while..chronically depressed, dropped outta school... i didn't wanna live, it scared the shit outta me, but i thought fuck it, i'll just live life without boundries...live as a libertine..i mean that might not work for you..i don't know your circumstances, but i'm getting the impression it's medical, right?
LOVElife
03-12-2006, 01:11 PM
When did this site turn into Suicide City? There is always someone wanting to top themselves or OD!
It's a Weed site, if I had never visited before I would think this was a site full of Down and outs who have let drugs take over their life!
There is a Fine Line between Using and Abusing! Sort it out Boys and Girls!
Peace
chisme
03-12-2006, 01:56 PM
man i didn't think you were an addict or anything, in fact i was pretty sure that wasn't the problem... you are right that we cant really understand though, like i can't step into your life and live it for a day or anything.
But what you say about "no one's putting a hand out"... life isn't always like that, it's not true that no one cares these days, I fucking care I just wish there was more any of us could do. Thanks for talking about it though man, cause you need to hear other people's perspectives on things. You also need to find someone to talk to face to face who will be kind and understanding, I think when you're embarrassed it's harder to believe that people will truly care. I think you know none of your problems right now will last forever, I mean I myself feel like life is too much to handle all the time, it's just a difficult time of life for me, but eventually if you just keep going forward things DO get better. And the more positive attitude you manage to have NOW, the easier it will be to get through the whole thing.
As much as our problems now are worse, when we get suicidal we're still in some ways just like those poor shy teenagers who kill themselves b/c they think social life in high school means everything. Please don't think that a temporary problem means everything.
chisme, you seem a safe geezer mate, don't be too rash about things...maybe telling us what's goin down would help, i don't think anyone here would judge you..i mean, fuck, we've had people asking if you can smoke insence ffs...we all have times where it goes wrong..i was fucked up for a while..chronically depressed, dropped outta school... i didn't wanna live, it scared the shit outta me, but i thought fuck it, i'll just live life without boundries...live as a libertine..i mean that might not work for you..i don't know your circumstances, but i'm getting the impression it's medical, right?
Thank you both for not just jumping in and banging on about it... what u both said does help allot more then everyone thinks. its medical/cosmetic just thought ide been here nealy a year now so i geuss as well as can be expected through an internet message board i beleive ive come to know most of u your opinion has a slight wave on me.
When did this site turn into Suicide City? There is always someone wanting to top themselves or OD!
It's a Weed site, if I had never visited before I would think this was a site full of Down and outs who have let drugs take over their life!
There is a Fine Line between Using and Abusing! Sort it out Boys and Girls!
Peace
i smoke when i visit this site ..when i smoke it relaxes me...when i relaxe i tend to talk about thing im not normaly comfortable thinking or having a conversation with someoen about. geuss i just knew that i load this site into my browser and if i couldnt take the answered i just wouldnt had to have visited again....sorta mind security u know
VoidLivesOn
03-12-2006, 10:21 PM
Under the circumstances I wouldn't have a fucking clue what is wrong with you, but if your just wasting all your energy on getting the money to buy the very drugs that will kill you...go ahead and do it.Whats this procedure you were talking about you didn't have enough money for? Why not use the money your using to buy all these drugs and just get fucking fixed.OR ask people to help out? Surely you have friends and family?
VoidLivesOn
03-12-2006, 10:25 PM
chisme, I think you are really scaring some of us bro. I'm glad you realize you don't really want to kill yourself; this probably is not the place for you to talk about serious shit as you can see from some of these other posts.
I can't believe people are actually giving recommendations on how to OD and making jokes, how about some real sympathy people. I can't even tell when they're joking or not. It just makes me scared and sad when we're dealing with real human lives and someone's deep personal feelings and we see people responding like this.
I can see you're embarrassed about whatever it is, but maybe it isn't as bad as you think. Fuck dude, do you really think we're judging you? I'm not anyway. Just be calm and think things over, maybe save your money for the medical attention you seem to need/want rather than drugs (although perhaps a GOOD strong experience or two can give you some clarity and perspective to think things through better...)
Have you ever heard of Iboga/Ibogaine? People have used this strong psychedelic to cure themselves of all kinds of unwanted addictions, by allowing them to look back on their lives objectively and calmly. It's possible to see what you've done wrong in the past without judging yourself or thinking it's too late to change. It sounds like you mostly just need a clean slate, THEN you can deal with your problems. So maybe a therapeutic voyage IS in order, just make sure you come back from it, and hopefully you'll re-emerge in better health. okay?
I don't know your situation so this may be all wrong but I hope it works out better than you think.
Haha you act like at least the MAJORITY of people who get on internet forums talking about suicide actually do it.
didnt get time to read everything everybody says but sounds like london sucks or wher ever the hell you live, get some money and come to america and yeah killing yourself over anything no matter how stupid painful or humiliatng it is, isnt worth it, we all have our tuff times some harder than others you just gotta keep on keepin on cant give up, cant take no for an answer
tootsie roll
03-13-2006, 06:00 AM
ive decided im finished im done with it all this is just a struggle a long assed one its total bullshit ive come round to idea that im actualy goin to try and blow my brain off the scale.
im talking the biggest drug binge ever. ive got 5 months 2 save up every peice of money i got and im gonna buy all the drugs i can lay my mitts on.
so far
weed - easy
acid - on its way from bournmouth
cocaine- down the road flat n0. 5
mdma - got 20 mitsibushi;'s one the way from vauxhall
mushrooms - lyberty caps a friend brought from amsterdam
salvia - x20 1 gram
what else can i put on the list im basicly doin fear and loathing in las vegas but i dont plan on coming back this is it for me ive come to the state of mind where my future bleak. so im thinking what if i just tinged out major? like i got so mashed i never came back?
long story very short
i fucked up ...not just i fucked something up I mean i fucked my whole future up over years of abuse to a certain area of my body and i will never have enough money to fix. so this is sorta my last stand.
PS. no its not my dick or balls
Wanna talk?
TonyD
03-13-2006, 07:10 AM
Mental problems can be solved. If there's something physical thats life threatening mate im sure the NHS has an obligatory charter to assist.
As for getting a new job, mate you live in London its a fucking mecca of jobs try living up here there's absoloutely FUCKALL. I know a ton of guys who moved to London just to get a job if they halfwit fucks can, no doubt you can.
As for the £1300 if you don't have the means to pay for it immediantly they WILL have to come to an arrangement with you in regards to paying at a rate which you can afford. Be assertive and don't let job interviewer put you off so what he laughed you should have laughed with him that would have put the motherfucker out a bit.
All in all mate don't sweat it, you fancy talking to me privately then definitely go ahead and add me on MSN im not the type of person to be judging people on their former or present lifestyle's trust me when i say that much.
You can catch me on
[email protected] if you don't want to talk fair enough have a good one and chin up eh don't be letting no motherfucker try and put your shit down.
chisme
03-13-2006, 10:33 AM
thank you. tony i may have to add u as sometimes i just get fucked in the mind and need someone o tell me im doin thing stupid sometimes i think what im saying is stupid then other days it seems the most inteligent choice i mean but someone in a diffrent frame of mind is able to look at it from a diffrent perspective. other peoples perspective gives me my bounds...my limit sorta because i know my mind dont wokr the same when i get in those moods.
Under the circumstances I wouldn't have a fucking clue what is wrong with you, but if your just wasting all your energy on getting the money to buy the very drugs that will kill you...go ahead and do it.Whats this procedure you were talking about you didn't have enough money for? Why not use the money your using to buy all these drugs and just get fucking fixed.OR ask people to help out? Surely you have friends and family?
yeah sure if it were that easy man my problem is gonna cost me like £2000 to get put right this is what i mena thou its like im gonna have to put what little social life i have on hold just so can work enough to et that much money...and i very muhc doubt im strong willed enough to save up........./.lol u knwo when u just wanna win the lottery without buying a ticket? lol i know stupid
i luv u mary jane
03-13-2006, 11:17 AM
look u wanna get some homemade shit, i'm experimenting right now with differnt types of drug to try and make a, well a fuckin superdrug, i like to be able to smoke the end result instead of inject any takers for free samples when i'm done?
mojoke
03-13-2006, 12:04 PM
look u wanna get some homemade shit, i'm experimenting right now with differnt types of drug to try and make a, well a fuckin superdrug, i like to be able to smoke the end result instead of inject any takers for free samples when i'm done?
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