What the fuck have I been doing?

[moeburn]

Does anyone else find it fucking disgusting that I've spent the past few years of my life smoking pot and playing video games, without a job or any school work, in a fucking filthy room living in my parent's basement?

goddamn I've wasted my life...

[CocaCola]

Not disgusting... something you had to go through to realize that you can do more with you're life? That's a GOOD thing, I mean, just think if that didn't happen.

[justinsane]

its better to burn out than is to fade away

[hihigh]

yes, i do.


you are the stereotypical marijuana abuser!


get off your duff and do something.

[show7stopper]

it depends how old you are, if your like in highschool its not that big of a deal if your in college or olded you should be ashamed of yourself

[slpntrx5]

yeah man if youre over the age of 17 and doing that, i'd slap u and tell u 2 get off your ass and do something so just in case you're that old, *slap* get a job, hippie! lolz

[moeburn]

I just turned 17, so I guess its not too late.

[Stoner Shadow Wolf]

better 17 than 20, like me, except it's an atic, not a basement.....


and im burnt out not because of the plant, which, in fact, is a fuel to NOT burn out, but the problem is my sheer hatred of society.


even if i didnt smoke pot, i'd still be the same burnout posting before you.

and actually, i'd be less interesting then as well :D

[intheclouds]

I just turned 17, so I guess its not too late.

No man It aint to late. Just turned 17 and you realized what your doing, Hell man you could still do great things in life. Just get balanced between life, what you want out of life and not be a MJ abuser. Just imagine you could be the 1st President on a MJ ticket!!!!!!!!!!
Good Luck Man.

[Stoner Shadow Wolf]

all i want to do is persue happyness, but society pins me down with arbitrary laws and regulations.



why is it so wrong to just want 1 acre of land to grow 1 acre of cannabis hemp to survive off of for everything from bread to firewood to food to houses to paint.


actually, im not certian about bread, but i'd be damned if you couldnt make bread from it. betcha anything cannabis is what adam and eve used when they got kicked out of eden! :D lmao

[420purplehaze420]

get a job you bum

[moeburn]

Okay here's what happened. I got high last night, and i was sitting in my room listening to "Aeroplane Flies High" by Smashing Pumpkins, and the guy said "If i knew where I was going, I would already be there. I would say I'm afraid to die, but I'm more afraid to live." It sounded like something I would say.

Then you know how when you get too high and you see everything in your field of view at once? I saw my entire room at once, and it was fucking disgusting. Then I got up, went to the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror. I said out loud "Its time to make some changes, you are useless, you are nothing but a leech, you need to give back, you need to earn this respect you ask of people, respect for what you have to say doesn't come out of thin air."

And I heard a voice in my head. I heard many voices. I heard every single version of me, every single personality I've ever known. They were all screaming at me "no you're wrong, you've been lazy all your life, even before you found pot, this is the way you are, why try and change it?" And finally, I became the voice in my head that I had never even heard. I became the one that thought I was pathetic. That voice existed in my head, it was just too afraid to speak.

And then I screamed at myself in disgust towards the mirror.

Today I invited my girlfriend over to help me paint my room, clean all the shit off my floors and walls, change my fucking bed sheets. She's my reason to work, she gave me the gift of herself, and I'm going to do everything I can to honor that.

I couldn't do this without her.

[Tmar.aLL.DaYmar]

aw, precious.

but i think 17 is a little early to be having a midlife crisis. dont sweat it man.

[slpntrx5]

(i know this sounds hypocritical, just chill for a minute) dude, you took that shit WAY fucking hard on yourself! damn, you're supposed to be HAPPY when you're high! just take baby steps lol you can still smoke just make it an occasional thing or somethin...idk nevermind what i say im so fucking stoned lol

[lagstronaut]

^ true dude. that's all nice stuff and congrats to you, but you should only be scared like this when you 're like mid-twenties and this is still going on.

[pixel]

Okay here's what happened. I got high last night, and i was sitting in my room listening to "Aeroplane Flies High" by Smashing Pumpkins, and the guy said "If i knew where I was going, I would already be there. I would say I'm afraid to die, but I'm more afraid to live." It sounded like something I would say.

Then you know how when you get too high and you see everything in your field of view at once? I saw my entire room at once, and it was fucking disgusting. Then I got up, went to the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror. I said out loud "Its time to make some changes, you are useless, you are nothing but a leech, you need to give back, you need to earn this respect you ask of people, respect for what you have to say doesn't come out of thin air."

And I heard a voice in my head. I heard many voices. I heard every single version of me, every single personality I've ever known. They were all screaming at me "no you're wrong, you've been lazy all your life, even before you found pot, this is the way you are, why try and change it?" And finally, I became the voice in my head that I had never even heard. I became the one that thought I was pathetic. That voice existed in my head, it was just too afraid to speak.

And then I screamed at myself in disgust towards the mirror.

Today I invited my girlfriend over to help me paint my room, clean all the shit off my floors and walls, change my fucking bed sheets. She's my reason to work, she gave me the gift of herself, and I'm going to do everything I can to honor that.

I couldn't do this without her.

you need to see a psychologist and i'm not even trying to be funny... that's nothing less than textbook schizophrenia

[Chucky76]

i just wanted to say good for you man.

[Nullific]

Yeah don't feel too bad, you have a girlfriend at least. I have a friend who is going on 20 now, quit his job, dropped out of college, cleared out his bank account smoking crack and now lives with his grandmother and sleeps 16 hours a day.

[krauser]

i think that the greatest gratification in life comes from accomplishment and work. I enjoy weed and its affects, but it doesnt control me. I think that it is good for a person to determine what their own capacity for drug induction is, and find a decent balance. I dissaprove severely of the illegality of weed, but its societal predeterminizations undermine its ability to change face in the eyes of most americans. I hope that you can find that balance and be comforatable in your life. I am only 16 years old, but i am already begginning a modeling career and publishing a book on philosophy. I plan on joining the Marines and later becoming an Astronomer, but until then, I make the difficult choice to work hard and gain knowledge. The worst thing you can do is to sit around and accomplish nothing every day. A continual lack of predelictions upon work and school will result in your eventual chaotic and depressing downfall. Something earned is so much more gratifying than something taken or recieved.

[BiG WiCkEd]

Does anyone else find it fucking disgusting that I've spent the past few years of my life smoking pot and playing video games, without a job or any school work, in a fucking filthy room living in my parent's basement?

goddamn I've wasted my life...

There's ppl who can smoke and handle the shit they are suppose to handle.
Then there's the folks that sit the fuck back all day and have their mind revolve around bud all muthafuckin day long.
It's cool if u like smokin bud and all, but life is too short to not go out there and get yours. To me a man who doesn't have any goals and visions for the future is not complete. For a man to sit there and blaze wastin life it's juz somethin I alwayz failed to fuckin comprehend...
It's all in the head pplz...all in the head...

[KeanBean]

dude honestly, thats life, u gotta do wat u gotta do, it seems u realize wat uve been doin n wat u need to do, so do wat u gotta do

[intheclouds]

It's cool if u like smokin bud and all, but life is too short to not go out there and get yours. To me a man who doesn't have any goals and visions for the future is not complete.

There you go and the weed just makes it feel even better when you reach your goals.

A lot of things in life is hard so.......IMO weed was given to us so life would be more bareable and enjoyable.

[Weeden]

you need to see a psychologist and i'm not even trying to be funny... that's nothing less than textbook schizophrenia

That depends on if he literally meant that he heard voices. I'm assuming that this is not the case.

And hell, like everyone said, you're only 17. You still got your life ahead of you. If you really want to get things rolling, get a job. Start saving up some money (and some for the tasty green). Having a stash of money will help you be able to make the decisions you want to make. Money is what makes the world go around.

Well... that and the moon.

[CocaCola]

better 17 than 20, like me, except it's an atic, not a basement.....


and im burnt out not because of the plant, which, in fact, is a fuel to NOT burn out, but the problem is my sheer hatred of society.


even if i didnt smoke pot, i'd still be the same burnout posting before you.

and actually, i'd be less interesting then as well :D

Hahaha, sounds like me. I can't do shit for society because they won't accept what I have to offer... so I gotta wait until I can do what I want to do without "them".


you need to see a psychologist and i'm not even trying to be funny... that's nothing less than textbook schizophrenia

Oh goodness, no it isn't. Jesus, spouting more bullshit?

And too all you assholes... if you haven't been through this kind of situation then you're sub-par humans... FUCKING PODS.

[pixel]

What are you talking about "more bullshit"? You have never referred to me directly on these boards.

Great argument by the way, really convincing! "Oh no it isn't." I can tell you're a real smart guy. Do you know the first thing about psychology or are you one of those people that are just too good for books and learn everything from their latest LSD trip?

Hmm, let's see: self loathing, multiple voices, racing thoughts, combine that with marijuana which often magnifies any given psychological disorder and voila! It's very easy to spot if you're not an idiot, but I suppose that leaves you out.

You're actually a pretty funny guy CocaCola. I'm sure you don't mean to be, but when I go around reading every post by you I have to laugh; you are the most narcissistic, self-absorbed, pseudointellectual person I have ever seen on these boards. It's downright pathetic that you think you're so much smarter than the general public, and don't bother denying it because it's very simple to see just by what you post.

Just in case you haven't realized it yet, people with your thoughts and views are a dime a dozen, most of them are usually JUST thoughts and views, and you are really nothing special at all. The truth hurts, I suppose.

[CocaCola]

What are you talking about "more bullshit"? You have never referred to me directly on these boards.

Sorry, I meant in general on this message board.


Great argument by the way, really convincing! "Oh no it isn't." I can tell you're a real smart guy. Do you know the first thing about psychology or are you one of those people that are just too good for books and learn everything from their latest LSD trip?

I have a cousin who works in criminal psychology and I've talked about this topic long before I even smoked a joint let alone drop acid, and with a trained professional at that... you didn't need to know that but that's ok, I don't mind.


Hmm, let's see: self loathing, multiple voices, racing thoughts, combine that with marijuana which often magnifies any given psychological disorder and voila! It's very easy to spot if you're not an idiot, but I suppose that leaves you out.

Sure, I guess that only happens to people with schitzophrenia, ok...


You're actually a pretty funny guy CocaCola. I'm sure you don't mean to be, but when I go around reading every post by you I have to laugh; you are the most narcissistic, self-absorbed, pseudointellectual person I have ever seen on these boards. It's downright pathetic that you think you're so much smarter than the general public, and don't bother denying it because it's very simple to see just by what you post.

LOL, I don't really care... Narcissistic, I don't see how... I mean, if someon is being an idiot then I call them an idiot, ok?! and Self-Absorbed? It's one in the same thing, you idiot!1 and pseudointellectual? it's the internet man... how can you even tell? I don't spurt out bullshit "non-facts" only the facts. So drink fermenting pussy liquid. :dance:


Just in case you haven't realized it yet, people with your thoughts and views are a dime a dozen, most of them are usually JUST thoughts and views, and you are really nothing special at all. The truth hurts, I suppose.

Yes, I am E-hurt. *Pout*

[VoidLivesOn]

Whhyyy can't we be frrieenndss...

[iamenfuego]

way to start cleaning urself up. my advice would be to get a job, start paying attention in school, go out with your friends and enjoy life smoke some chron and be adventurous and strive to always do good and do stuff you will be proud of. the best thing to do is to go to college and get an education and then from their, there are many options you can choose.

im 17 in high school and enjoy life very much. yea i do get down on myself sometimes but u gotta kno that its not the end of the world and u can always make up for things. i want to go to college to be a doctor and live a sucessful life or be a marine bioligist and study the wonders of the ocean (one of my favorite things) and move to a nice island where i can relax in peace enjoy life with all my friends i meet there and smoke good carribean chron and study what i love most.

EDIT: also get involved with school and other things. meet new people and find what you like best.

[moeburn]

sorry I don't believe schizophrenia is a real problem, cause most schizophrenics tend to fight themselves instead of other people. I figure as long as I don't hurt anybody, I don't deserve the punishment of a mental institution.