Ecto24
02-11-2006, 09:57 AM
Since Iā??ve looked around and found numerous people with all sorts of problems within this board. So I figured why the hell not put mine up here, hell maybe someone can help. I'll start this off saying I am 18 and I am not a virgin. This is not my problem, but I do have one even though it's slightly less major. See the first girl I was ever with was my ex girlfriend, a relationship that lasted me a year and a half. The final time we broke up and there was three, was when I ended it and that was final. So now it's been 10 months since Iā??ve had any kind of sexual interaction. Now this is not due to the fact that I can't talk to girls and make them interested because I can, it's just that I haven't really wanted to or found someone that interested me. And now that needless to say my mental health is slightly affected, and it wasn't this hard before I lost my virginity. I just can't really picture myself just hooking up with someone, I don't know it's weird I just can't picture myself being that intimate with someone I barley know. Well that gets on my nerves sometimes, since all i have to do is look around and see people able to not even blink at the idea. I guess it comes down to the fact Iā??m probably just scared, scared that Iā??ll knowingly be pretty bad this first time back and for a while, and probably also scared that Iā??ll end up ruining memories I have. Once again living in the past to often in not a good thing, but it comes and goes. Also it could be that Iā??m just not attracted to most girls, I mean yeah there is a lot of really good looking girls, but I can't even carry a conversation with most of them I talked about stuff that well people that are my age just don't care about, I think to much and I like conversation. That and the fact that I have quite a few quirks about me. I'll usually go off on random tangents about stuff that like 2 other people know about. Well then I guess Iā??m a nerd. But it's not like Iā??m anti-social, Iā??m on the soccer team at college, I go out, and like meeting new people.
Well then Iā??m done ranting I guess. This is what happens when you get high and think too much to often. So either take my post for your amusement or give something back. Constructive Criticism is good or even the occasional DUDE THAT'S WACKED!!!! So I guess that's about it, I just figured I needed someone to talk to about this and well I haven't found anyone here to do it, so you guys/girls get the job since well we are all the chillest of the chill. Well thanks for reading all this.
Peace
Well then Iā??m done ranting I guess. This is what happens when you get high and think too much to often. So either take my post for your amusement or give something back. Constructive Criticism is good or even the occasional DUDE THAT'S WACKED!!!! So I guess that's about it, I just figured I needed someone to talk to about this and well I haven't found anyone here to do it, so you guys/girls get the job since well we are all the chillest of the chill. Well thanks for reading all this.
Peace