sano
01-04-2006, 12:34 AM
Let me state that I only smoked weed twice in the last 13 years. The two times within the last two weeks. The first time was good nothing bad, felt happy and retarded. That was two weeks ago.
Now New years day my friend bust some out, so I'm like fuck it, it's New years. I just got off my drinking buzz. I take two nice size hits off his joint, that's it. With in a few minutes I start feeling all the nice high, but it only last for about five minutes. That's when I became very depressed and start thing of breaking up with my girlfriend, for no reason. All these miserable feelings start rushing through my head, but that last only about two minutes.
Suddenly I begin to feel like my body tempature just exploded and my heart starts beating extremely fast. I look in the mirror, my face is more pale then anytime I have ever seen it in my life. I jump into the bath tub because I'm so hot and put it on as cold as I could get it and fill it. I begin to just poor ice cold water over my head and it doesn't feel the least bit cold, but help tremdously.
My girlfriend walks in and starts pouring water over my head. While she is doing this she keeps asking me if I'm alright. Which I didn't want to hear because for some reason anyones voice or touch made me feel like hitting the toilet. That's when I get this brief anger that happens a few times,but only last a second or two. My brain was telling me to hit her. Something I would never do in a million years. I love her to death. I resist and all is well after after about thirty minutes in bath.
I begin to get real sleepy, but not the type where I could fall asleep. The type that I could just lqy there for hours. So I'm sitting upright on the floor and I close my eyes. I'm like holy shit, it feels like I'm falling down an elavator shaft at a extremely high rate of speed, but it doesn't feel remotely pleasant. Just sickening. I decided my best bet would be to try the bed.
I go and lay in the bed close my eyes and I feel as if I'm spinning to the left and feel like I need to puke, but can't. So I start to think of ways to get this spinning to stop. Finnally, i'm like fuck it I'm putting on the breaks. Like I''m driving a car. It stops, but then I start spinning to the right. I hit the breaks again and it stops. This goes on for about ten minutes when once again I have a mood change.
My hearing becomes crystal clear and I could hear any peep in the room and start getting goofy thoughts. Talking to myself in my head like I'm talking to another person, but with the added bonus of making everything rhyme. I have one that for some reason is the only conversation with myself I remember. "omg did you see that cat" "what cat" "that cat in that hat"
After about two hours of head ryhming with myself I finally feel normal and fall asleep.
I've been sober for about twelve hours now when I hit the bed with my girlfriend the next day. This is when freaky shit starts to happen. I feel as if I dosed off, but know I'm awake. I have my eyes closed when I feel a hand rubbing my back. This I knew wasn't possible because my girlfriend was laying with her backed toward me. To make sure I open my eyes and she her in the same position, but I still feel a hand rubbing my back. My insides begin to shake, but not my out side. My movement is suspended and I can only open my eyes. I try to open my mouth to say something, but can't open it. Finally after a about a minute I regain function.
I close my eyes again. After a minute I get those same feeling. Like someone else is in the room. This happens a total of three times. Now I decided to wake my girlfriend up and tell her to watch me to see if she sees it happen, but it never did happen again.
Now New years day my friend bust some out, so I'm like fuck it, it's New years. I just got off my drinking buzz. I take two nice size hits off his joint, that's it. With in a few minutes I start feeling all the nice high, but it only last for about five minutes. That's when I became very depressed and start thing of breaking up with my girlfriend, for no reason. All these miserable feelings start rushing through my head, but that last only about two minutes.
Suddenly I begin to feel like my body tempature just exploded and my heart starts beating extremely fast. I look in the mirror, my face is more pale then anytime I have ever seen it in my life. I jump into the bath tub because I'm so hot and put it on as cold as I could get it and fill it. I begin to just poor ice cold water over my head and it doesn't feel the least bit cold, but help tremdously.
My girlfriend walks in and starts pouring water over my head. While she is doing this she keeps asking me if I'm alright. Which I didn't want to hear because for some reason anyones voice or touch made me feel like hitting the toilet. That's when I get this brief anger that happens a few times,but only last a second or two. My brain was telling me to hit her. Something I would never do in a million years. I love her to death. I resist and all is well after after about thirty minutes in bath.
I begin to get real sleepy, but not the type where I could fall asleep. The type that I could just lqy there for hours. So I'm sitting upright on the floor and I close my eyes. I'm like holy shit, it feels like I'm falling down an elavator shaft at a extremely high rate of speed, but it doesn't feel remotely pleasant. Just sickening. I decided my best bet would be to try the bed.
I go and lay in the bed close my eyes and I feel as if I'm spinning to the left and feel like I need to puke, but can't. So I start to think of ways to get this spinning to stop. Finnally, i'm like fuck it I'm putting on the breaks. Like I''m driving a car. It stops, but then I start spinning to the right. I hit the breaks again and it stops. This goes on for about ten minutes when once again I have a mood change.
My hearing becomes crystal clear and I could hear any peep in the room and start getting goofy thoughts. Talking to myself in my head like I'm talking to another person, but with the added bonus of making everything rhyme. I have one that for some reason is the only conversation with myself I remember. "omg did you see that cat" "what cat" "that cat in that hat"
After about two hours of head ryhming with myself I finally feel normal and fall asleep.
I've been sober for about twelve hours now when I hit the bed with my girlfriend the next day. This is when freaky shit starts to happen. I feel as if I dosed off, but know I'm awake. I have my eyes closed when I feel a hand rubbing my back. This I knew wasn't possible because my girlfriend was laying with her backed toward me. To make sure I open my eyes and she her in the same position, but I still feel a hand rubbing my back. My insides begin to shake, but not my out side. My movement is suspended and I can only open my eyes. I try to open my mouth to say something, but can't open it. Finally after a about a minute I regain function.
I close my eyes again. After a minute I get those same feeling. Like someone else is in the room. This happens a total of three times. Now I decided to wake my girlfriend up and tell her to watch me to see if she sees it happen, but it never did happen again.