Strange Days

[Ganj]

I'm overwhelmed by this feeling of betrayal...

I don't whether to blame it on paranoia or what? I was hanging out with some friends the other day and all was well. Everything was fine until late in the evening. I've been trying to figure out how I could be better company around people because a lot of the time I don't feel like that's what I'm bringing. It's actually really stupid of me because I get allow my mind to get caught up in these simple, benign, comments (made by friends) and I take offense to them (in my head). And obviously the comments don't stop because then no one would say anything or else I'd get anxious. I'm in a bind. A bind that I thought was broken after having one of the chillest days with my friends the day before. I think what triggers it is when my friends are talking and I can't hear them. I get this feeling that they may be talking about me. My friends are real shady sometimes, but aren't we all? Somtimes I feel like there's something they want from me that I'm not giving.
Maybe I should just stop stressing? Take a deep breath and let it all go. It's obviously unjustified for a reason and I know this, but my mind keeps re-tracing it's steps and I dwell deeper and deeper, searching for nothing. It's pathetic and a handicap in my social experiences. I just wish it would go away.


Thanks for listening.

[PleasureOverload]

oh..i thought you were referring to that movie with juliette lewis about virtual reality, that movie is TITE!!! they play it all the time on usa and sci fi.

[NightProwler]

i used to have friends like that, always talking behind my back and i finally ditched them

[Ganj]

i used to have friends like that, always talking behind my back and i finally ditched them
I thought about doing that, too. Like I said though, my thoughts go unjustified. It's just myself being irrational, having an excessive self-importance issue. I've often tried to conform myself to meet the 'standards' of my friends. I lost myself. Your personality is engraved in you. Once you change that, nothing but hard-ache wil emerge. My mother has the same issue. Paranoia, that is. Luckily, I just found this out after having a heart-to-heart with her and it's brought me to a better understanding. If I think back far enough I can actually pinpoint the very moment that these feelings started getting to me. That's when I felt I needed to change myself. Basically, I didn't think things out as well as I should have. If my friends didn't like me or they were constantly talking shit, would they still be hanging out with me? I obviously didn't change too much.

[hihigh]

sup man i had the same problem as you, i ended up ditching them. I realized that they were cool sober but when they were high there true inner assholishness came out. You shouldn't need to feel the need to conform or feel you aren't brining anything to the table. If you are made to feel like that at all you should know something is the problem. If you are around true friends you can just flow, you don't have to worry about if what you are saying is stupid or something.

I just blaze with my highschool friends now or by myself..

[flamingskullballs]

PleasureOverload...nice tits...

Strange Days Lyrics


Strange days have found us
Strange days have tracked us down
They're going to destroy
Our casual joys
We shall go on playing
Or find a new town

Yeah!

Strange eyes fill strange rooms
Voices will signal their tired end
The hostess is grinning
Her guests sleep from sinning
Hear me talk of sin
And you know this is it

Yeah!

Strange days have found us
And through their strange hours
We linger alone
Bodies confused
Memories misused
As we run from the day
To a strange night of stone

[PleasureOverload]

is that the theme song for the movie?????

[Ganj]

sup man i had the same problem as you, i ended up ditching them. I realized that they were cool sober but when they were high there true inner assholishness came out. You shouldn't need to feel the need to conform or feel you aren't brining anything to the table. If you are made to feel like that at all you should know something is the problem. If you are around true friends you can just flow, you don't have to worry about if what you are saying is stupid or something.

I just blaze with my highschool friends now or by myself..
In a sense I feel like they're trying to help me. You know how people look back and realize after years and years what a person was trying to do for them? Well fortunately for me I can see it all unfold at that very moment. My friends 'assholishness' is the key to the door I'm banging on. Although even when I realize this my head is still flooded with these dumb thoughts. Am I stupid?

[flamingskullballs]

is that the theme song for the movie?????

no, thats the theme song for an album...

[jbuckets]

most likely if their still chillin wit u they dont hate u and even if they talkin shit they prob dont mean it or else they wouldnt be rollin wit ya. anyway if you do really think theyre bein douches just start makin some new friendss that way you got some homies to fall back on

[lemonboy]

Ganj: Don't be so hard on yourself. Your feelings are not irrational, they're just unique. Don't be so quick to conform. Instead find comfort in who you are and you'll be better equipped to handle yourself when people are assholes.

[Ganj]

Ganj: Don't be so hard on yourself. Your feelings are not irrational, they're just unique. Don't be so quick to conform. Instead find comfort in who you are and you'll be better equipped to handle yourself when people are assholes.
I appreciate your words of wisdom and i'll take them to heart. I found great dis-ease when I tried to change myself. Thanks again, lemonboy. Your helpful words bring warmth to my soul. Once again, thanks.

[lemonboy]

I appreciate your words of wisdom and i'll take them to heart. I found great dis-ease when I tried to change myself. Thanks again, lemonboy. Your helpful words bring warmth to my soul. Once again, thanks.You're welcome :)

[DazedandConfused]

man you know i am the same way. whenever i hang out with a few friends, i always just have this weird feeling. a lot like what you described. sometimes even like it's not even me that they want there.

[hihigh]

My point is though, if you are feeling these irrational feelings and are getting paranoid over these sorts of situations then I don't think that these are "true" friends anyway. Marijuana of course helps you see things in a different way, but at the same time can also make you extremely paranoid, heh.

My whole decesion to ditch my current group of friends was that I was having these odd thoughts that they didn't like me and I just felt like a tag along...even after throwing down money frequently and giving them some of my own bud.

I just don't think you should have to go out of your way to gain acceptance. Why should you be forced to do things you wouldn't normally do or assimilate yourself just to gain the liking of them? If you feel like they are being strange around you, they probably are...you are just blowing the circumstances out of the water as you are high when you start noticing these things.. which in it's own right is an extreme buzz kill.

I never ever have these feelings around my friends from highschool. We just click in every possible way, and will be great friends forever.

the friends i ditched...i realized they would sort of "use" me for my kindness..for instance, i would drive one person here and there because he didn't have a car...granted we'd still chat and chill on the way there and stuff...but the only reason we did it was because he needed something from me..another kid asked me to go to lunch with them...at that time i realized that none of there other friends were around and they just didn't feel like sitting along by themselves at the lunch table..However, when it came down to smoking they wanted nothing to do with me. I actually had to go out of my way to see what they were doing and sort of invite myself over..

It was at this point i realized these people probably don't liek me as much as i thought and i didn't feel like being an annoying tag along. so, in short, bye:)

[Ganj]

I just don't think you should have to go out of your way to gain acceptance. Why should you be forced to do things you wouldn't normally do or assimilate yourself just to gain the liking of them? If you feel like they are being strange around you, they probably are...you are just blowing the circumstances out of the water as you are high when you start noticing these things.. which in it's own right is an extreme buzz kill.


Your absolutely right! I don't have to do anything to gain acceptance, but for some reason I think the only person that was uncomfortable with me was myself.

[daZenfmeister]

I know how ya feel Ganj, dont worry about it if they are talking about you they would say it to your face believe me. Unless they are really bad friends do they insult you alot and steal stuff from you? Do they ever invite you over to smoke?

[Omni05]

Ganj, you're too cool for people not to like :D:D:D

im sure they all feel the same way too, unless you provide them with a reason to keep you around even though they don't like you. Such as group transportation, loaning cash, or connecting them with bud.

[Ganj]

Ganj, you're too cool for people not to like :D:D:D

im sure they all feel the same way too, unless you provide them with a reason to keep you around even though they don't like you. Such as group transportation, loaning cash, or connecting them with bud.
No, not really. I'm a walking-ass, dead-beat, loner mexican.
daZenfmeister, no insults on this end, or anything to steal for that matter. Lately, they've had to rely on me calling them because well, it's hard to get ahold of me at my crib...even though I'm here all day, eh. I wonder how they feel? A friend being absent for six or more months, rarely coming back for a day and vanishing before you know it. I had a great day today.