ANGER PROBLEMS

[Kronik Bagz]

ok, well sometimes i wake up wit these headaches, but its worse than the normal ones, they hurt so bad im dizzy as shit, an cant see or think straight. it actually feels like i got a hallow tip in there that wont stop spinning an is slowly tearing my brain to mush. i know that isnt a very logical metaphor because u cant feel pain in ur brain but lets pretend its more sensitive than a ballsack. thats how they feel.
well thismorning i woke up wit another one an i actually thought i felt the blood leaking out of my ears. i stood up an stumbled over to the tv that had the one fuckin channel on that i had most, MTV. an even worse it was that faggy ass road rules(im sorry if u like this show or channel but it fuckin taunted me this morning) my head was splitting in half an i couldnt get it to turn off, i completly forgot where the button is an everything an i couldnt see it. well i decked the TV screen like 6 times till the bastard cracked an not i think i have broken bones in my hand. if u dont know how much it hurts to punch a 6inch thick piece of hard ass glass on an older style TV a couple times. now im rememberin why i saw so many psychiatrists. am at the point in life where im ready to flip on anyone for anything an it sux

also i have a common problem called nail biting but how i do it seems to be more described an nail PEELING. if ur a nail bitter u probably know what im talkin about but if u dont what happens is when ur get to the part where ur nail is attached to the skin its hard. i peel this out from under my nail. when thats gone i bite my cuticles. i actually peel my cuticle skin back creating a painfull cut to my knuckle. there is also a top layer to ur nail. i peel this off also. im very self consious about this problem but im ok postin it cause i dont really know any of u that personally. does anyone else have this problem? i have to say bein a nail biter fer the past 10 years its harder to quit than smoking. the nailbitting addiction i have is more painfull than when i drag a blade across my chest an the scary thing is i enjoy it. it feels good in a sic sort of way.

if anyone thinks this is a stupid ass thing to post than im sorry but i had to get a few things off my chest. i got a feelin i wont be around much longer unless i can find a way to help out myself. i jus need to know if anyone has an idea about how i can help myself out. does anyone have any problems they wanna post? i jus want some reasurance that im not the only one wit these problems. i want to know that im not the only one out there like this cause i never hear anyone talk about this shit.


peace n' bagz
kronik

[Kronik Bagz]

i meant to put that one tv channel i HATE most and an tv show i HATE most. i guess it goes back to childhood memories or somethin but i do NOT like MTV at all fer some stupid ass reason

[nancythestuntbum]

Kronik maybe you have migranes. You should see a doctor. Yeah I have problems. Lots of them. For instance. I'm clinically depressed and I hate quack doctors so I refuse to see them. The weed isn't helping anymore. I have ISS and it's very painful. The past two months have been constant chronic pain for me. Enough to drive you out of your mind. I have gained 10 pounds and I can't get it off. So I have resorted to starving myself. I now have headaches like you. Oh yeah my bf and I broke up because of his porno addiction and the fact he's insensitive. Two years of my life has went down the drain. I got refused for financial aide this year so I have to foot the bill. For some reason I can't get medical insurance at either place I work because I'm part time which leaves me stuck with over two grand in doctor bills for my ISS treatment that doesn't even work. I live in a shithole town where everyone knows everyone and all their business. Which makes life terrible for the normal people who just want to go about our business. And I'm finished talking about all the things I have that makes me an angry lady. But believe me that's just the tip of the ice berg. So no you aren't alone. Check out the avatar. That's me lol. My stress level makes me feel like doing that!

[Kronik Bagz]

i used to get migrains, jus a fat pain above my eye that made me puke from the pain, but these seem worse. like i actually have shit bursting in my head, could this actually be happening? i hear ya on the fact that u dont like doctors. those bastards fucked me up, i had severe depression, what they gave me somehow made me manic-depressant, then i got some more shit to take, made me skitzo., than i had ADD. i felt like a god damn zombie fer a half year cause of this fuckin quack.

[nancythestuntbum]

Yep. shrinks suck. I would definately see an MD about your headache though.