XTC
11-05-2005, 07:00 AM
Haven't posted here in a while. Well I have been busy working and studying for school. Got a second job serving tables on the weekends as well as my Loan Officer title in the morning, plus balancing school and partying too! Plus I am turing 21 this Wednesay! :D But this week has suck major balls. First, I ended up losing my 250+ dollar digital camera at this Halloween party. Then I have known this girl for almost 2 yrs, we were great friends, then we started kinda seeing each other. That lasted about 4 months, we broke up and now she doesn't even want to be my friend. Said she just couldn't love me and being friends would be too uncomfortable with her. At first I was pissed and mad, but now I respect her decision, I means what's the point of living a lie, just to make someone else happy. It's just the fact of her losing her as a FRIEND. Not knowing how she is and where she is going in life hurts the most. I find myself looking at photos of her and almost coming to tears. Sometimes I just wish we haven't of dated and remained just friends. I mean I loved her just as a friend. Oh well, I will come to terms with it. Just sucks and felt like venting. Please feel free to ridicule me now.. haha Oh ya, I am blazed!!!! :stoned: