Nochowderforyou
08-26-2005, 07:54 PM
high all,
After many, many months of research, I decided to try Ayahuasca for some enlightment in life. A friend of mine, who is bi-polar, tried it, and his whole outlook on life is different. He no longer needs prescription drugs to help him. This one ceremony of Aya changed him. I needed a change. I am a very angry person who has depression and anxiety. These prescription drugs twist my mind around and I feel emotionally trapped. I feel I can't express any feelings. I feel stuck, motionless, numb when I am on these pills. I don't want to take them anymore because they are very damaging to my body. So after 9 years of prescription drugs, it has now been 3 days since my last medicating, I have stopped. Here is my story:
I know of a Brazilian fellow who I use to work with years ago at a pig slaughtering house. For over a year he has been ranting and raving about Ayahuasca. He said it is a natural herb, that is brewed into a tea, and it is suppose to cleanse your body. I know I needed help, my friend gained from using it, so I was willing to try anything.
He brewed this tea outside in his yard. It was just some leaves and stems, looked like normal vine leaves and such. He boiled it in a pot over a fire for about 24hrs. He added natural tobacco, that means no additives, tobacco leaf, for flavour. After the brewing in a small pot, it was crammed into about a pint each of a brown, brew. It tasted like, burnt citrus drink with ciggarette butts. Awful, just awful taste. I choked it down in 2 gulps, and kept it down.
Within the first 20min or so, I could feel it coming on. The music around us seemed to get louder with every note. I closed my eyes and was having close eyed visuals of flashing images. Some were of bloodied bodies, a trainwreck, and a major environmental disaster(oil spill, forest fires, etc). They were flashing in my mind, non-stop, and with each flash, the picture got clearer and clearer, until I opened my eyes and it stopped.
I was feeling a little sick to my stomach at this point, which is normal. Vomiting is the part that supposed cleanses your body of evil. I hear a knock at the door, I answer, and I see past relatives and old friends. I saw my grade 1 teacher there, my Opa was there, my old pet cat who died a few years ago, and my old friend who commited suicide years ago. I could see them, but it was like I could see right through them. Like they were a mist or something. I taled to my old friend, his name was Dan, I asked him why...he answered me saying it wasn't my fault he did it.
My Brazilian friend comes in, asks me who I was talking to. I turned around and said..."Th..." They were all gone. A hallucination in my mind. I pet my cat, I talked to my friend, what the hell is going on?! I thought. I was tripping, but in a good way.
I then went back outside and I vomited. It wasn't pleasant, but afterwards, I felt total bliss. Like I was on cloud 9 with a pound of weed and hundreds of hot, naked Asian girls. I recalled my conversation with Dan. I went over it in my mind continuously. Was he there in spirit, talking to me, or was just having a trip? I didn't know, but I feel a huge weight off of my shoulders. After about 4 hrs of tripping, it stopped. I went home, smoked a doob, recalled my convo with Dan again, and went to sleep.
I woke up and I felt at ease. I felt happy, blissful, like the question that has been eating at me for years was finally answered. I didn't take any pills that night, and haven't in 3 days. Usually if I don't take them, I am off the wall, but I feel calm, love for my fellow person, liberated, reborn, and I no longer feel angry. I am a very hateful person, but I now realize that life is too short to be angry. I wanted to be happy, for once, I wanted to be without pills. I didn't feel human, I felt dependant on these pills, I hate them!
For once in 9 years, I feel happy, and non-violent. I feel peaceful, very peaceful. I think I found what I was looking for through the use of Aya. I encourage anyone who is emotional, mental pain, to sit down with someone, and drink this tea. It was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. I no longer need prescription drugs, and I can go back to feeling normal, human again. I am making Aug.22, a yearly event for me, to cleanse my soul through the use of Aya.
Thank you for reading.
After many, many months of research, I decided to try Ayahuasca for some enlightment in life. A friend of mine, who is bi-polar, tried it, and his whole outlook on life is different. He no longer needs prescription drugs to help him. This one ceremony of Aya changed him. I needed a change. I am a very angry person who has depression and anxiety. These prescription drugs twist my mind around and I feel emotionally trapped. I feel I can't express any feelings. I feel stuck, motionless, numb when I am on these pills. I don't want to take them anymore because they are very damaging to my body. So after 9 years of prescription drugs, it has now been 3 days since my last medicating, I have stopped. Here is my story:
I know of a Brazilian fellow who I use to work with years ago at a pig slaughtering house. For over a year he has been ranting and raving about Ayahuasca. He said it is a natural herb, that is brewed into a tea, and it is suppose to cleanse your body. I know I needed help, my friend gained from using it, so I was willing to try anything.
He brewed this tea outside in his yard. It was just some leaves and stems, looked like normal vine leaves and such. He boiled it in a pot over a fire for about 24hrs. He added natural tobacco, that means no additives, tobacco leaf, for flavour. After the brewing in a small pot, it was crammed into about a pint each of a brown, brew. It tasted like, burnt citrus drink with ciggarette butts. Awful, just awful taste. I choked it down in 2 gulps, and kept it down.
Within the first 20min or so, I could feel it coming on. The music around us seemed to get louder with every note. I closed my eyes and was having close eyed visuals of flashing images. Some were of bloodied bodies, a trainwreck, and a major environmental disaster(oil spill, forest fires, etc). They were flashing in my mind, non-stop, and with each flash, the picture got clearer and clearer, until I opened my eyes and it stopped.
I was feeling a little sick to my stomach at this point, which is normal. Vomiting is the part that supposed cleanses your body of evil. I hear a knock at the door, I answer, and I see past relatives and old friends. I saw my grade 1 teacher there, my Opa was there, my old pet cat who died a few years ago, and my old friend who commited suicide years ago. I could see them, but it was like I could see right through them. Like they were a mist or something. I taled to my old friend, his name was Dan, I asked him why...he answered me saying it wasn't my fault he did it.
My Brazilian friend comes in, asks me who I was talking to. I turned around and said..."Th..." They were all gone. A hallucination in my mind. I pet my cat, I talked to my friend, what the hell is going on?! I thought. I was tripping, but in a good way.
I then went back outside and I vomited. It wasn't pleasant, but afterwards, I felt total bliss. Like I was on cloud 9 with a pound of weed and hundreds of hot, naked Asian girls. I recalled my conversation with Dan. I went over it in my mind continuously. Was he there in spirit, talking to me, or was just having a trip? I didn't know, but I feel a huge weight off of my shoulders. After about 4 hrs of tripping, it stopped. I went home, smoked a doob, recalled my convo with Dan again, and went to sleep.
I woke up and I felt at ease. I felt happy, blissful, like the question that has been eating at me for years was finally answered. I didn't take any pills that night, and haven't in 3 days. Usually if I don't take them, I am off the wall, but I feel calm, love for my fellow person, liberated, reborn, and I no longer feel angry. I am a very hateful person, but I now realize that life is too short to be angry. I wanted to be happy, for once, I wanted to be without pills. I didn't feel human, I felt dependant on these pills, I hate them!
For once in 9 years, I feel happy, and non-violent. I feel peaceful, very peaceful. I think I found what I was looking for through the use of Aya. I encourage anyone who is emotional, mental pain, to sit down with someone, and drink this tea. It was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. I no longer need prescription drugs, and I can go back to feeling normal, human again. I am making Aug.22, a yearly event for me, to cleanse my soul through the use of Aya.
Thank you for reading.