Truman show

[mono repin]

Ok, for anyone who has seen this, I'm getting really paranoid about it lately. I haven't seen it in a long time, but all of a sudden it started fucking with my brain. When I first saw the movie, I got a little paranoid about it, but kind of dismissed it as silly. Lately though (especially while stoned) I think a little deeper about it. Like the fact that all my experiences have defined who I am. That if people were so motivated they could shape everything about me. It's not so much the shaped thing that I'm paranoid about. I don't mind being watched, or having my life being led by someone else, its just the fact that everyone knows, and no one will tell me. Then its like... oh wait, things like the truman show ARE telling me there is more than meets the eye. I bring this up with random people and of coarse they brush it aside and say, yeah don't worry about it too much... unfortunately... thats excatly what someone would say that is trying to keep me in the dark. I guess what I'm trying to get at is I hate being lied to. And whether I'm on a tv show, or whether there is a god, or whether the whole world is setup to fuck with me, or whether its just my friends plotting against me, trying to change the way I think, or what have you, I just want open and honest discussion about whats going on. I feel like there are lots of wispers about me, all plotting... I could care less that there is plotting going on, just be up front about it.

... maybe more later, who knows.

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[mono repin]

The thing thats strange about it... is that before, it was an interesting idea. Now I'm looking at all the details, and they fit perfectly with the truman show "world" concept. Weed always helps me take details and fit them together to notice trends. This is a scary trend I'm seeing.....


... how much do you people know about me. What are you trying to change me into next? Have you ever plotted against anyone... or has anyone plotted against you.

... maybe I need a weed break for a bit... or maybe I just need to smoke another bowl.

[tylerkane]

I am watching you.
Put on some shorts nukka..eww

[Dick Justice]

Our brains are designed to find patterns in everything, I wouldn't worry about it.

(cheese it boys, he's onto us!)

[henrypj]

haha! cheese it! the thing is, you can NEVER know if its happening to you cos whatver people say they could be telling the truth or not.....weird.

[Hempamasta]

I don't really know much about you, except that you like dank buds.

[somebody someone]

maybe this thread is just to make me believe im not living a life like truman, when infact i am, who knows

[mellowman420]

your right most people are ploting against you like the government, some friends, those ghetto kids you see give you a weird look late at night. i think your def. wrong about that whole someone else is running our life. i think i make my own decisions. your right, people do talk behide everyones back to much, even i do it, but some people do it so much it makes you want to cut their mouth off. if you think your life is one big t.v. show you may be a bit too self-centered, their were no televisoins a hundred years ago so you must think your something special, maybe you are, but probably not. weed makes you think deep, bw worried about the future, past and present but for now i think you need to just chill.

[mono repin]

Thats the whole thing... in the truman show they picked an "ideal" point in history to put him in. Even though they were many years in the future, he was still living in an ideal point in history. For that matter all of history could be fake, I've never taken the time to prove or disprove any of it. Sure there are books... but under the "the world is fake" premise they could all be "props."

It is a self-centered thought... at the same time its the most essential fundamental thought... "who am I?" I feel bad that I spend alot of time thinking about it... but I spend alot of time thinking about other people as well. If I can't figure out the basic fundamentals of life like who am I, how can I decide how to treat/interact/etc with others. Basically its either live like nothing is going on, deny that there might be something greater going on, or be paranoid as hell, and spend my life trying to find inconsistancies that "prove" that something bigger is going on. I guess thats religion...

So, if there is a god, or greater "creator" being. Would it be logical for a creator to create us, yet hide him/her/itself? If the concept was to be hidden... then by process of creation... it shouldn't be our job to glorify the creator, which is contradictory to religion. If the creator wanted to be glorified then it would make itself known, we don't see that either.

I guess what I'm really scared of is everyone else being so much smarter than me that they can realize whats going on. Everyone else has a handle on this.

[tylerkane]

I see you..
"heavy dude, heavy"
Stop thinking about this shit.
No one is plaining against you, we just live our damn lifes and die
"ya gotta keep on livin. l-i-v-i-n, livin."

[Dick Justice]

Dude, you don't even know paranoia until an acid trip goes so far south that you literally see God laughing at you from the sky.

*shudder*

[tylerkane]

lol Dick

[Creeper]

Wow I watched you type that message in the secret camera hidden in your computer moniter! lol, that would be trippy shit huh, but who knows? I could be telling the truth ;)

[mono repin]

Hahaha, creeper

... I think I got things figured out for now.

Although acid seems so much less appealing now... haha