Boy, life sure sucks sometimes, huh?

[ermitonto]

Well, at least mine does. I just turned 20 recently and I have no idea what I want to do in my life. I'm studying linguistics at school but I don't have a clue what I'm going to do with that. Speaking of school, I took 5 classes this semester, had to drop one because it was too much work and failed another somehow. I e-mailed the professor because I don't know why I failed (since I did turn in the very vaguely defined final essay assignment that accounted for the vast majority of our grade) but he won't respond.

In all my 20 years on this planet, I have never kissed a girl. I'm so eager to lose this goddamn virginity I don't know what to do. I can't talk to girls and I don't know where to find them, not that I would want one of the skanks from this town I'm spending the summer in anyways. And to compound the sexual frustration, SOMEBODY in my family is ALWAYS in this house so I can hardly even jack off anymore.

I'm getting my wisdom teeth out soon. The dentist says there's not enough room in my mouth for them so they have to be yanked out of my skull. Plus, apparently 1 in 300 people who go through with this operation suffer permanent numbness of the lips and tongue. I don't like those odds. And the rest of my teeth are in really crappy condition. The dentist says I have the teeth of a 60-year-old and it's costing my parents tens of thousands of dollars to repair them. And I get to spend tons of happy hours on the dentist's chair as I savor the guilt from not brushing my teeth more often and never flossing and drinking lots of soda to wear away the enamel.

And if that wasn't enough, my family is looking after my sister's cats as she is moving to North Carolina. I was unaware that they weren't supposed to go outside and I let one out this afternoon. Now he is missing and it's all my fault. :(

Well, I just needed to get that out. I hope things take a turn for the better, but somehow Murphy's Law seems to always get in my way.

[looseends]

honey you are not alone. i can tell you about my day, but then we'll just be going through this "mysery loves company" cycle and you don't want to go through that for the rest of your life. i want to tell you to wait for sex, but even that coming from me is funny as hell.

it really sounds like you need some time to yourself to figure some things out. as far as school is concerned, do what you're interested in. some (maybe most) of the time the degree you earn in college is not what you're going to be doing in that field. try to find something that's related to the field you're studying. it may be a stepping stone-it may not, but you don't want to throw it away.

as for your teeth-honey, do whatever you need to do to get them done. if you can't afford a dentist (believe me i KNOW i can't) try a referral service or ask a dentist if they know of someone who can fix the grill on some sort of payment plan. or if you don't want to go that route try your local colleges for a "dentisry school." yeah-yeah i know they're students, but most of them who are qualified to work on your teeth will be graduating seniors who will be under strict supervision.

i know you don't want to read it will be ok, (cuz i'm going through my own personal hell), but i do believe it will be. and if all else fails...i hope you have your room so you can "do your thing".

[ermitonto]

I've had plenty of time alone to sort things out, and I guess I just have to wait and see how things pan out for me. I know I can do better in school, and linguistics is the topic which interests me the most (although it does turn you off a bit when your field of study turns from a passing interest to constant work) but it just doesn't seem like the things I'm learning would ever be useful in any job. I can't imagine a job where I'd need to know what kind of writing system was used in ancient Persia or the details on the debate about whether Japanese and Korean are related languages. Frankly I don't really even about what job I end up with. I could be happy with a low-paying job for the rest of my like (I don't need much) but all this work, despite being somewhat interesting, seems rather pointless at times.

I'm not worried about my teeth in the long run. My parents will find some way to pay it off, but I feel guilty for incurring this huge expense on them which I could have avoided.

I have faith that things will be all right again. Maybe not perfect, but better than this. At least the cat was found.

[mellow mood]

find a hobbie, something u like, and get a job on what u like. or travel man, go anywhere, u are free, u are 20 jeez.

do something, live!!

[ermitonto]

If only it were that easy. There are no jobs in this crappy little town, and I can't travel anywhere since I don't have a driver's license or any money. I have to wait two more years until I can get out of here and finally move to the Netherlands.

[Etrain]

Damn man, that sucks...for real. Stick through it...

[Looker]

Dude chill out itll get better...

Look at the bright side you could look like me...

[Looker]

Y'know Im not sure but I think thats Gemal Attaturk in my avatar...

[Looker]

Hey Im just a young Turk what can i say...

[Looker]

Ermi I have been reading your posts for a year...you are one of the sharpest dudes on the boards everything you say makes alot of sense you have so much going for you my friend...as for girls dont worry some day youll yearn for some time to yourself...linguistics...lots of carreers in that but u need a MA and Phd to really hit it...

Languages themselves like Arabic, Japanese, French and Portugusese/Spanish or Japanese are good ...get lotsa jobs with those ...even freelance for courts and hospitals...

Anybody who makes the suggestions and post links and good advice you do is an asset anywhere...

No fuckin bullshit dude..your a winner...think that way...

[Smokey McPot]

Let me warn you. Try not to smoke to much pot now. Dont party to much and screw things up and dont spend all your money on pot. I have friends that are going to be losers cause all they want to do is party. I hope im not even friends with some kids that i am friends with now when i am 25. They are gonna have no money. For me i never let smoking get in the way of things. I only smoke if i ahev nothing going on such as work or school.

[robert42]

1 big game my friend.

To be UP you need to experience being DOWN. Or they would be no UP.

Today you may feel down tommorrow u may not. Dnt let it get ya down and dnt let the bastards grind ya m8!

[jkg114]

hey man, i feel for you. But you should always look on the briteside and be optimistic about ur views on life. Everyone has shitty days. Dont worry to much about the shitty things. I have no parents,(or i just dont know them) but i dont let it get me down. Peace, it all works out in the end.