TanCep123
06-08-2005, 11:18 PM
hey. i suppose i have mild depression. i guess so because i don't really feel anything. wel, anyways, after smoking weed the 2nd time i was super high and the next day i still felt strange. the trees had a life of their own. the 3rd day i still wasn't sure if the trees are breathing. anyways, the point is i haven't sung in 4 years...and have never played the piano as well as i did after smoking weed. i felt less inhibited and anxious. however i developed an anxiety of surroundings. no so much of what i'm DOING but of objects. it's extremely wierd but subsiding.
perhaps i have a tendency to psychosis w/ marijuana considering that every member of my immediate family is metnally disturbed in some way and even my grandmas too. what i'm saying is that maybe i should stop using it because of that but also because i don't really enjoy the feeling of being high. i am intensly paranoid. however i do enjoy immensly being in a differnt reality. when im high i feel like schizo... it's alarming and sorta entertaining but i don't think it's good. i guess i shouldn't do freakin self-evalutations and leave that to shrinks but im never going to one again since most shrink's have fucked up philosphies on how humans and that's how they are.
so, off the topic sorta but what i really wanted to ask is if you guys've expereicned anthing with a schizo/mj reltion or seen it or heard about it? i didn't konw that there was even a link w/ mj and schizo. but the symptons i had stirred me to research it on the net and surprised me, i came along a lot of findings&evidence (but not completely sure of their credibility)? thanks
perhaps i have a tendency to psychosis w/ marijuana considering that every member of my immediate family is metnally disturbed in some way and even my grandmas too. what i'm saying is that maybe i should stop using it because of that but also because i don't really enjoy the feeling of being high. i am intensly paranoid. however i do enjoy immensly being in a differnt reality. when im high i feel like schizo... it's alarming and sorta entertaining but i don't think it's good. i guess i shouldn't do freakin self-evalutations and leave that to shrinks but im never going to one again since most shrink's have fucked up philosphies on how humans and that's how they are.
so, off the topic sorta but what i really wanted to ask is if you guys've expereicned anthing with a schizo/mj reltion or seen it or heard about it? i didn't konw that there was even a link w/ mj and schizo. but the symptons i had stirred me to research it on the net and surprised me, i came along a lot of findings&evidence (but not completely sure of their credibility)? thanks