No Buds Journal

[thenightbadger]

Hello - I have been smoking weed since i was 17 and I'm 20 now. I've tried to quit and take breaks and haven't found it to be too difficult, but i always rationalize my way into blazing again after a week or so. I love smoking nugs. Smoking weed got me off depression and sleep meds and really restored my relationship with my brother. Weed has also led to me getting kicked out of my band, losing a girlfriend and recently my sister and her husband told me they aren't comfortable with me holding my 2 month old niece because they heard i've been smoking weed with my friends. They're conservative christian types and that's just how they do things i guess. I would never use a child to change something about a family member that i don't agree with, but that's what happened. So I've decided to stop smoking weed until I turn 21 in February. I figure it's as good a time as any to take a break and clear up my mind a bit. Weed gives me clarity and the ability to see my circumstances in a different point of view, but it also clouds up the mind at times and slows everything down.. So I decided I'd make a journal and share it with a few fellow stoners just in case some people are going through some similar shit or if anyone has any useful advise or tips for staying off the buds.

So tonight is my last night of smoking. I have a gram of some LA Confidential and I'm gonna twist up my last blunt and begin the process tomorrow. I'll write back with my symptoms and shit, but i'm trying not to over analyze this whole thing. Hopefully I will come to some cool revelations that will be worth sharing with you guys. Alright, keep it easy -the night badger

[bigsby]

That sister situation is f&ck up. She shouldn't play those games. The rest of it cracks me up. People need to live and let live. We'll all be mailing you buds in a few weeks... Good luck to you!

[GaGrown]

Have you ever had an Epiphany? When you turn 21.. You will! I promise..

Ga.

[williboy]

You wouldn't believe how many times almost all of us have stopped and started using this wonderful herb. But that is the beauty of it, you can just stop anytime, no problem. (except you wish you weren't) Handling mindgames and time dialation comes with perhaps a little more time. But I think it wise of you to journal this as you will learn from it, if for no other reason than you'll pay attention, you will never overestimate how important that quality is, just ask your girlfriend or wife. lol

[painretreat]

Hi nightbadger, good luck to you and your relationships! Sounds to me like you need your weed for medical reasons. Regardless, wishing you luck and will follow! pr

[thenightbadger]

Alright hello again - Thanks for the responses, I really appreciate them. So I smoked the last of my bud a couple nights ago and haven't smoked since. I've actually been sleeping a lot, no signs of insomnia. Too much sleep if anything.. No appetite. I DEFINITELY find myself being irritable for silly reasons. That might be the worst part about kicking the nugs these days.. Because if you're smoking the weed I'm smoking which is all cali dispensary weed, your mood might be as dramatically effected by that plant as mine was. Been smoking cigs a lot more often. Which I don't like, but that's a whole different battle. @williboy is totally right though. Weed is great because it's not physically as addictive as something like alcohol or cocaine.. Which is great for going on vacation with family, or something where you can't smoke weed, but you're busy throughout the day. I toured the country for three months and didn't smoke the whole time, and it wasn't a problem. It's when you're home, with the homies, with the people to buy it from and the time to do it.. that's where the temptation comes in.

So I am not having any significant issues a bike ride can't solve and am looking forward to lowering my tolerance and blazing a J when I go snowboarding in Feb. Peace and out -night badger

[bigsby]

Been smoking cigs a lot more often. Which I don't like, but that's a whole different battle. @williboy is totally right though. Weed is great because it's not physically as addictive as something like alcohol or cocaine..

Or nicotine... I have one request - give up the cigarettes. I'm 48 and it is one of the biggest regret I have from my youth (smoked cigarettes on and off ages 15 - 35). So destructive. Not to mention expensive these days. Save your smoking for something less harmful and more fun. You're doing the right thing. Very responsible. I'll be following along. Don't sweat any backsliding either. Sh1t happens.

[painretreat]

;)Hi nightbadger, if you are here in CA why not try medibles! I think you will be secretly surprised at how much they will help! Especially after a break! I love them when I am with people that are not educated well regarding the benefits! Really, it sounds like you could use something! You have lost alot of things, but I sorta doubt it was the weed that caused it. Moreso, perhaps the reason why you need it? But, it is too hard to educate some people with religious beliefs.

Now that you are not blazing, you must have alot more time! :jointsmile:Guess, that 2mos. old has gotten under your skin. Babies are so sweet and fun! Hope you have more time with her, the time seems to fly as they grow up! I personally would be more concerned of cigarette smoke around a child, but that is me! :rasta:pr

[thenightbadger]

Hey Merry Christmas guys, hope all is well and everyone is having a good season. I know for me this has been a pretty crazy week! for those of you who haven't been following or don't want to read all of the old posts, I quit smoking weed because my family had such strong feelings against it and gave me an untimatum to stop or I can't hold my new niece, who i love very much. This situation has been talked through with everyone in my family and some interesting opinions have risen. A lot of arguing and conflicting opinions.. But I decided to stop arguing and even stating my opinions because I found that close-minded people don't think marijuana users have valid opinions. If their state-of-mind is being altered, so are all of there thoughts and rational knowledge. So I decided to let NetFlix do some talking. There are so many fucking documentaries about weed, but people are still very ignorant on the subject. I watched The Union:The Business of Getting High with my sister and brother-in-law and I think it really hit home with a few of their concerns. They just can't get over the legality of it.. I live in AZ, which is now a medical state, but believe it or not, there are people who are against medical use of marijuana because it is a federal offense. Does anyone have any thoughts on that? One thing I've come to is that legality is not what it should be. There are the few illegal substances that really shouldn't be illegal, and a handful of legal substances that should ABSOLUTELY be illegal. One thing that's been coming up in Phoenix is fucking bath salts. It's a sad thing man.. Any of us, or any of our kids can go to a head shop, get a balloon of "bath salts" without an ID and be tweaked out, up for days on these salts, which I have pretty much found to be more lethal than meth and heroin. I've never done this shit and don't plan to.

Anyways, I found with a little valid education on cannabis, it's history, it's prohibition, it's effects and it's users, my family had a change of heart. They still wish I didn't do it, but are more sympathetic to me because I used to be on other meds and now I'm not. So i don't have to drug test, I don't really have to stop smoking, I just can't hold my niece if I've been smoking that day. Which I think is fair. A little micro-managed, but more fair than only being able to hold her if I provide a clean drug test.

So this was good news to me. I had stopped for just over a week, but last night me and some of my best friends had a couple christmas blunts. I think I am going to continue using cannabis, just a little differently than I was. When you smoke too often, it gets old and the whole cannabis comma lifestyle can be frustrating as fuck. I think, for me, cannabis needs to be something more of a weekend treat or something that will be enjoyed more if used sparingly. So that's where I'm at. I don't feel like I relapsed or anything like that. I my situation with my family was the same, I might consider it a relapse, but the situation changed and now I have a more honest relationship with everyone in my family. I also just hate using hard drug terms like relapse with weed.

Alright, this has been a sufficient amount of blabbering. How was everyone's Christmas? How did you celebrate?

[painretreat]

:jointsmile:Hi nightbadger, Sounds like you have found a happy spot to be in. Thanks to Netflix! What I think is, more are afraid we might give the kid something! And worse, drop your niece!

You are correct, many are still worried about Federal Law. The main problem I notice is the homeowner that believes, "I can get my property seized" if the Feds come in and you have a tiny bud! These are the uneducated and under the mushroom of I don't want to learn anything!

It is absurd to think that a Federal Agent will come in and find, you the only toker around with enough on you to waste the entire state! You really have to go looking for 'trouble' for any property seizure. Like, growing over your limit, a disturbance or something that is a nuisance! And it isn't the act of smoking that is the problem, in most cases!

The same people that worry about a toker on their property and losing it, will be the first one that makes a U turn in a no U turn or turning Left in a No left turn. Seems they get enough attention from the law they become afraid and do not arm themself with enough of the 'facts.' I know people that have been arrested and given their plants back.

The Feds are called in by the State and seem to be focused on the "Store Front' variety of marijuana. People don't want to see it. It has been a sub-culture for so long, they want it to remian that. Sort of like, well XX rated movies and porn! A cross between OTC stuff and flix. Legalization will be the only way to get it accepted. Glad to hear you happy! pr thanks for an update:rasta:

[GaGrown]

OMG! I'm flippin' backwards,on that response! You go!

Ga.