Amandroid
03-19-2011, 06:56 AM
Hello! This is my first post here. I moreso frequent r/trees, if you know of it, but I wanted to post here for anonymities sake.
I'm going to write about my situation and hopefully someone out there has had the same experience or similar. I suppose I should go to a doctor, but I don't want to bring it up and have my insurance inadvertently canceled.
So I smoked everyday for about a year and a half up until August or September of last year. That's when I started to not enjoy the feeling I would get when high. I get a real uneasy feeling, I get really jittery and I feel like my heart beat is irregular and really slowed [I have rather low blood pressure to begin with and Afib runs in the family, so...]. I could especially get jittery when smoking around people I was not familiar with, but I guess I'd chalk that up to something of the panic attack sort, although I'd feel otherwise relaxed in the situation.
I'm afraid I might have triggered this and that really pisses me off. I don't know if it's possible [I read a Erowid experience where someone did coke and it fucked with their reaction to pot, so maybe the same thing happened.]. Around that time I was messing around with diphenhydramine, just out of convenience. I was very careful with it, taking under the recommended dose [according to Erowid] and gradually working up from there over the course of a few weeks. But one night I had a really bad "trip", if you will. I think it was mostly paranoia, but I was SO worried that my heart was stopping and starting. I forced myself to vomit and just chilled out until it was over, but after that I said "no more".
But ever since I can't even enjoy cannabis. [Though I can't really remember if my bad reaction to pot started before doing DPH, but I would say it got worse afterward] It really sucks. Since September I've only taken a few hits off a blunt and my roommates vape, and for most of those have led to me feeling really paranoid about the whole situation. Only once since did I have a relatively nice high. This really sucks, you guys! I love smoking and I miss it so much! Does anyone have any advice for me? Is there anything I can do to reset myself, so to speak?
Thank you for reading if you did get this far! lol
I'm going to write about my situation and hopefully someone out there has had the same experience or similar. I suppose I should go to a doctor, but I don't want to bring it up and have my insurance inadvertently canceled.
So I smoked everyday for about a year and a half up until August or September of last year. That's when I started to not enjoy the feeling I would get when high. I get a real uneasy feeling, I get really jittery and I feel like my heart beat is irregular and really slowed [I have rather low blood pressure to begin with and Afib runs in the family, so...]. I could especially get jittery when smoking around people I was not familiar with, but I guess I'd chalk that up to something of the panic attack sort, although I'd feel otherwise relaxed in the situation.
I'm afraid I might have triggered this and that really pisses me off. I don't know if it's possible [I read a Erowid experience where someone did coke and it fucked with their reaction to pot, so maybe the same thing happened.]. Around that time I was messing around with diphenhydramine, just out of convenience. I was very careful with it, taking under the recommended dose [according to Erowid] and gradually working up from there over the course of a few weeks. But one night I had a really bad "trip", if you will. I think it was mostly paranoia, but I was SO worried that my heart was stopping and starting. I forced myself to vomit and just chilled out until it was over, but after that I said "no more".
But ever since I can't even enjoy cannabis. [Though I can't really remember if my bad reaction to pot started before doing DPH, but I would say it got worse afterward] It really sucks. Since September I've only taken a few hits off a blunt and my roommates vape, and for most of those have led to me feeling really paranoid about the whole situation. Only once since did I have a relatively nice high. This really sucks, you guys! I love smoking and I miss it so much! Does anyone have any advice for me? Is there anything I can do to reset myself, so to speak?
Thank you for reading if you did get this far! lol