huge panic attack/freakout while high: need feedback!

[donny101]

Alright, so let me start out with some background information about me. I'm a 17 year old male who makes fairly good grades (mostly A's and B's :thumbsup: ) I've been diagnosed with social anxiety and depression and have suffered on and off for a good portion of my high school career. I first smoked weed with several of my friends around 2 years ago.

The first time I ever smoked I took several hits and out of a pipe and didn't feel anything. I still remember to this day them trying to explain to me that it felt like there was an earthquake :D I continued smoking with them maybe once every month or 2 and we had fun times listening to music and just chilling out. I always remember that I was the one who would seem a little higher or more "out of control" than anyone else. Anyways, I always had positive experiences.

My junior year in high school I stopped smoking for around a year because my girlfriend disapproved :( When we broke up, I decided to get more seriously into marijuana out of curiosity.

The first time I smoked again was with a few friends (different than ever before) and even though I hadn't smoked in a long long time, I felt higher than ever before. It was still very fun though.

I've also eaten weed brownies a few times as well. I remember one time I only ate maybe 1/8 of a brownie about 3x3 inch, and I was the most relaxing high I've ever had in my entire life. In my head I felt like I was completely there, yet I was just happy all over and it felt like I had downed a couple Vicodon pills. No headache, no worries, just happiness all over :D

On another note, my friend recently got me a dub of some OG Kush from a medical marijuana dispensery down in LA. I decided one weekend to stay home instead of going out with friends and just take a few hits by myself, then lay down in bed while listening to some music through headphones. I had a pretty fun, yet relaxing experience and fell asleep around 2 hours after the first toke.

The next few nights I decided to smoke again, doing the same thing as I did the first night, but smoking a little more than before. One night, specifically a Tuesday, I took about 3 huge pipe hits of this stuff, and everything seemed to be going how it usually was. It wasn't until I was laying in bed listening to my music that I realized I was higher than I'd ever been in my entire life. I closed my eyes and I had the craziest trip of my life. I started picturing mario from super mario 64 and I was flying through the sky. Each time I pictured something it transitioned into something completely random but it seemed to flow perfectly well in my mind. I opened my eyes and the room seemed waaaaayyy darker than before. I started freaking out. My heart was beating extremely fast. I looked over at the clock and only 15 minutes had passed by. I turned back and I could still see the outline of the time in front of me from my digital clock for a few seconds. Then I started staring at 2 pictures hanging across the room from me. The more I noticed them the more that was all I could think about until suddenly they seemed to be a pair of angry eyes. I actually remember a small amount of light that was shining in looking like an evil smile. One picture seemed a lot more red and the other was really green. Usually by now I would be able to let my mind relax just fall asleep, but for some reason I couldn't. I shot up out of bed, ripped my headphones off, and just stared out ahead of me blankly. I knew at this point that something was NOT right. I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and saw my face and flipped out. I moved my head towards and away from the mirror slowly, and it felt like there was a completely different head across from me coming towards me. I was pacing back and forth freaking out telling myself that I did not like this at all and that I felt like I was going to die. I think I almost began to cry. I tried splashing water on my face and putting in eyedrops; anything that would calm me down. Nothing worked. I tried to tell myself that it was all in my head and that it would pass just like the other nights. Suddenly, I looked forward at the mirror and froze, as if I had a life changing revelation. My head then slowly dropped back and my eyes closed while staring at the ceiling. I remember feeling like god personally came down to save me from this terrible nightmare. But when I opened my eyes, i freaked out again. I went back to my room and laid down again and tried to go to sleep but I was freaking out too much. I wanted to kill myself. Time was moving by soooo slowly and every small movement I made seemed to last a whole five seconds.

Throughout that night at some point I remember being so freaked out that I took out my phone and went to the notepad and typed this: "Never do drugs again. I feel like I'm dying. this isn't fun anymore. I have no control. I wanna go back down. There must be more than weed in this. This is fucking real I am way too high omg help me."

I think I just had an ENORMOUS panic attack, because my spelling was fine and I sounded coherent with what I typed.

Anyways, through some miracle i managed to fall asleep. I woke up the next morning expecting to go to school, but my head felt extremely groggy. I tried standing up to get ready for school but I immediately felt a blankness in my head; I still felt pretty high. I told my parents I felt sick and they said I could stay home. I fell back asleep and woke up at around noon and felt a little better. I got on the computer just to check my email (don't ask why) and started feeling worse. I basically slept that entire day and felt better by the next morning and went to school (though I still felt lightheaded)

After this seemingly life changing experience :thumbsup: I decided to take a break from smoking for a while. A few weeks later I decided to smoke that same OG Kush late at night, but very cautiously, and I mean VERY cautiously. I literally packed a nug in my pipe the size of an eraser on the tip of a standard pencil. After smoking it all in one huge hit, I got a huge headache which bothered my all night (but i still got high :rasta: ) It was hard to sleep but I eventually slept it off.

A few days later i tried smoking again, but this time i literally smoked ONE LEAF the size of a PENCIL TIP. EVEN THIS MADE ME FEEL HIGHER THAN I HAD EVER GOTTEN WHEN I FIRST STARTED SMOKING, yet I could actually function.

What is wrong with me? I used to smoke 2 to 3 bowls shared between 2 other friends when I first started smoking and be perfectly fine, now I can't even take a hit without freaking out? Am I just getting really really really good shit? Was I just smoking some schwag the first few times I smoked?

The thing I want to get most out of this post is:
1) if there is such a thing, find some type of smokable weed that has the same effect as I discussed with my weed brownie experience
2) be able to smoke without getting those nasty headaches :(
3) figure out why I had such a horrible experience that I never have had any other time while high
4) as stated in the first paragraph, I've suffered from severe anxiety for a long time, and I would love it if there was some way I could smoke weed and feel care free, or find some strain of weed that is like this (I've heard strawberry cough works wonders?)
5) I've heard that I should look for a sativa dominant strain to help cheer me up and make me more alert so I don't freak out, yet I've also heard that sativas are bad for people with anxiety. I've also heard that Indica dominant strains are better for people with anxiety and chill you out more. What should I look for?

I would like to thank anybody who actually took the time to read through this entire thing, even though a majority of it is probably completely unnecessary. I felt as if I had to share how I've been feeling lately somehow; it's been bothering me nonstop.

Any sort of feedback, suggestions, or simply insight is GREATLY appreciated!

[RedLocks]

Well, the experiences you were talking bout where you freaked out and stuff, sounds a lil crazy for the amount you were smoking. Then again it was high grade and maybe you didn't have a tolerance and it just hit you real hard? dunno..

anyways on topic, check out this thread http://boards.cannabis.com/medical-strains/102691-specific-med-strains-specific-uses-nice-list.html

few strains listed for anxiety there.. I was trying to find a thread where I had been given a list of strains for both depression and anxiety last oct/nov, but the posts and or thread seem to have magically disappeared from my posting history..

[ForgetClassC]

Alright, so let me start out with some background information about me. I'm a 17 year old male who makes fairly good grades (mostly A's and B's :thumbsup: ) I've been diagnosed with social anxiety and depression and have suffered on and off for a good portion of my high school career. I first smoked weed with several of my friends around 2 years ago.

The first time I ever smoked I took several hits and out of a pipe and didn't feel anything. I still remember to this day them trying to explain to me that it felt like there was an earthquake :D I continued smoking with them maybe once every month or 2 and we had fun times listening to music and just chilling out. I always remember that I was the one who would seem a little higher or more "out of control" than anyone else. Anyways, I always had positive experiences.

My junior year in high school I stopped smoking for around a year because my girlfriend disapproved :( When we broke up, I decided to get more seriously into marijuana out of curiosity.

The first time I smoked again was with a few friends (different than ever before) and even though I hadn't smoked in a long long time, I felt higher than ever before. It was still very fun though.

I've also eaten weed brownies a few times as well. I remember one time I only ate maybe 1/8 of a brownie about 3x3 inch, and I was the most relaxing high I've ever had in my entire life. In my head I felt like I was completely there, yet I was just happy all over and it felt like I had downed a couple Vicodon pills. No headache, no worries, just happiness all over :D

On another note, my friend recently got me a dub of some OG Kush from a medical marijuana dispensery down in LA. I decided one weekend to stay home instead of going out with friends and just take a few hits by myself, then lay down in bed while listening to some music through headphones. I had a pretty fun, yet relaxing experience and fell asleep around 2 hours after the first toke.

The next few nights I decided to smoke again, doing the same thing as I did the first night, but smoking a little more than before. One night, specifically a Tuesday, I took about 3 huge pipe hits of this stuff, and everything seemed to be going how it usually was. It wasn't until I was laying in bed listening to my music that I realized I was higher than I'd ever been in my entire life. I closed my eyes and I had the craziest trip of my life. I started picturing mario from super mario 64 and I was flying through the sky. Each time I pictured something it transitioned into something completely random but it seemed to flow perfectly well in my mind. I opened my eyes and the room seemed waaaaayyy darker than before. I started freaking out. My heart was beating extremely fast. I looked over at the clock and only 15 minutes had passed by. I turned back and I could still see the outline of the time in front of me from my digital clock for a few seconds. Then I started staring at 2 pictures hanging across the room from me. The more I noticed them the more that was all I could think about until suddenly they seemed to be a pair of angry eyes. I actually remember a small amount of light that was shining in looking like an evil smile. One picture seemed a lot more red and the other was really green. Usually by now I would be able to let my mind relax just fall asleep, but for some reason I couldn't. I shot up out of bed, ripped my headphones off, and just stared out ahead of me blankly. I knew at this point that something was NOT right. I jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and saw my face and flipped out. I moved my head towards and away from the mirror slowly, and it felt like there was a completely different head across from me coming towards me. I was pacing back and forth freaking out telling myself that I did not like this at all and that I felt like I was going to die. I think I almost began to cry. I tried splashing water on my face and putting in eyedrops; anything that would calm me down. Nothing worked. I tried to tell myself that it was all in my head and that it would pass just like the other nights. Suddenly, I looked forward at the mirror and froze, as if I had a life changing revelation. My head then slowly dropped back and my eyes closed while staring at the ceiling. I remember feeling like god personally came down to save me from this terrible nightmare. But when I opened my eyes, i freaked out again. I went back to my room and laid down again and tried to go to sleep but I was freaking out too much. I wanted to kill myself. Time was moving by soooo slowly and every small movement I made seemed to last a whole five seconds.

Throughout that night at some point I remember being so freaked out that I took out my phone and went to the notepad and typed this: "Never do drugs again. I feel like I'm dying. this isn't fun anymore. I have no control. I wanna go back down. There must be more than weed in this. This is fucking real I am way too high omg help me."

I think I just had an ENORMOUS panic attack, because my spelling was fine and I sounded coherent with what I typed.

Anyways, through some miracle i managed to fall asleep. I woke up the next morning expecting to go to school, but my head felt extremely groggy. I tried standing up to get ready for school but I immediately felt a blankness in my head; I still felt pretty high. I told my parents I felt sick and they said I could stay home. I fell back asleep and woke up at around noon and felt a little better. I got on the computer just to check my email (don't ask why) and started feeling worse. I basically slept that entire day and felt better by the next morning and went to school (though I still felt lightheaded)

After this seemingly life changing experience :thumbsup: I decided to take a break from smoking for a while. A few weeks later I decided to smoke that same OG Kush late at night, but very cautiously, and I mean VERY cautiously. I literally packed a nug in my pipe the size of an eraser on the tip of a standard pencil. After smoking it all in one huge hit, I got a huge headache which bothered my all night (but i still got high :rasta: ) It was hard to sleep but I eventually slept it off.

A few days later i tried smoking again, but this time i literally smoked ONE LEAF the size of a PENCIL TIP. EVEN THIS MADE ME FEEL HIGHER THAN I HAD EVER GOTTEN WHEN I FIRST STARTED SMOKING, yet I could actually function.

What is wrong with me? I used to smoke 2 to 3 bowls shared between 2 other friends when I first started smoking and be perfectly fine, now I can't even take a hit without freaking out? Am I just getting really really really good shit? Was I just smoking some schwag the first few times I smoked?

The thing I want to get most out of this post is:
1) if there is such a thing, find some type of smokable weed that has the same effect as I discussed with my weed brownie experience
2) be able to smoke without getting those nasty headaches :(
3) figure out why I had such a horrible experience that I never have had any other time while high
4) as stated in the first paragraph, I've suffered from severe anxiety for a long time, and I would love it if there was some way I could smoke weed and feel care free, or find some strain of weed that is like this (I've heard strawberry cough works wonders?)
5) I've heard that I should look for a sativa dominant strain to help cheer me up and make me more alert so I don't freak out, yet I've also heard that sativas are bad for people with anxiety. I've also heard that Indica dominant strains are better for people with anxiety and chill you out more. What should I look for?

I would like to thank anybody who actually took the time to read through this entire thing, even though a majority of it is probably completely unnecessary. I felt as if I had to share how I've been feeling lately somehow; it's been bothering me nonstop.

Any sort of feedback, suggestions, or simply insight is GREATLY appreciated!



My first and only point of advice, you are too young to be on this forum.....read the rules, don't break them........


-C

[donny101]

My first and only point of advice, you are too young to be on this forum.....read the rules, don't break them........


-C

well christ, this is a forum for a federally illegal substance, so I thought people just may let that slide. Besides, I'll be 18 in a month :wtf:

All I want is some answers, not another "big brother" figure pointing a finger at me... :D :stoned:

[IEmPtYNeSsI]

well christ, this is a forum for a federally illegal substance, so I thought people just may let that slide. Besides, I'll be 18 in a month :wtf:

All I want is some answers, not another "big brother" figure pointing a finger at me... :D :stoned:

this is a forum for medical marijuana patents and caregivers. read the rules and atleast lie about your age if ur gonna be 18 in a month

[donny101]

alright, well sorry... =[

[IEmPtYNeSsI]

its fine. i think this might give u some info

there is such a thing as "overindulging"...sort of like doing a beer bong, or shots of liquor, or whatever. The only difference is that overindulging in booze CAN kill you relatively easily; overindulging in weed (which is what happened to me) will just keep you groggy for several hours, and can cause headaches (I had a major headache all day long), as well as nausea (yep - you guessed it).

[Starfox]

Confused about the former replies, the young man is just looking for some help, not the rule book.
Addressing your post, I uniquely enough have had similar reactions to more potent strains of bud, and currently must be extremely careful when smoking at all. Long story short my mental health was compromised (I believe) by smoking extremely strong bud too frequently. After taking a 7 month break, I took one hit and relapsed. My best advice from personal experience on the subject: If you cannot see yourself quitting weed (which would not be a bad idea if you do not medically need it), take a short break and smoke some lower grade bud and see what happens. If out of a pipe, take a small hit like you would a cig, and don't hold it in. If you are O.K. after that, tread lightly and stay away from potent buds. Currently I must drink before hand, or I will most likely panic.
Hope that helped.

[ShastaCoMan]

damn.... i have and have had some superb stuff ( ive got some right now thats so sticky you can toss it on the wall and it will literally stick..no joke) but i havent EVER had nor heard of anthing like that except from a bro of mine who got some one time at the ozzy concert that was PCP'ed

[JelloBlob]

It's just weed. Some are stronger than others but not harmful. Also, some are stronger/more potent than others

[Jimbob1310]

My first and only point of advice, you are too young to be on this forum.....read the rules, don't break them........


-C

thats a very unnecessary post, nobody asked you how you feel about the "rules" of this forum although possession of this plant can land you in jail so why dont you keep that to yourself huh?

he asked an appropriate question and besides for 4 irrelevant words you singled out "im 17 years old" he has a valid question.

who knows why you would try to make him feel bad about asking in stead of just answering the question is beyond me, feel good about yourself though C you really made a solid contribution to this thread...:wtf:

Same with you emptiness, get yourself some rep before you try to tell other people how it should be.

Donny: Sometimes i feel the same way, different sativa strains make my chest feel weird sometimes and i feel like somer strains arent for me, they make me feel uptight in stead of relaxed, my advise is try smoking a small nug of something other than OG Kush and see if you have better luck.

Also, i find having a close friend there with you to calm you down will also help you out.

best of luck

[NaturalMystic1]

Donny, listen to my story.....

When I was 18, it was the summer after my first year in college. However, I did not go away to a 4 year college after high school. I continued to live at home with my parents while I went to a local Community College in town. I smoked all throughout high school, all day every day. I smoked in the morning before going to school. I smoked during lunch time. and we smoked as soon as we got out of school. Needless to say, I had AWFUL grades, hence the community college.

I had always been able to smoke with the best of them. I could smoke some of the best weed you could smoke, multiple bong rips, and I'd be fine. Super stoned, but fine.

This is where the story applies to you (I think)
It was the night before I was to get my wisdom teeth out in the morning. I can't quite remember what I did that day, but I think I played a game of pickup basketball. (this will be relevant later on). Anyways, I remember it clearly. I was sitting up in my bedroom when I took a huge resin hit from my acrylic bong. Then it hit me. I couldn't regain my breath. My heart felt like it was going to explode. I didn't know if I had a collapsed lung or if I was having a heart attack or what.

I now know that what I experienced was a massive panic attack. Since then, I have transferred to a 4 year school and live on my own (with roommates.). I had quit smoking and got good grades at community college. It was until last year that I began to experience panic attacks without smoking, so I was put an an anti-anxiety med.

I just recently stopped taking them and am drug free. I also recently got a septoplasty back in December. I discovered I had a deviated septum, in which I couldn't breath out of my left nostril at all.

Now, what I think my issue was, is that my nose became deviated the day prior to my resin induced panic attack. Once that occured, my brain was hardwired, to the anxiety I experienced, and associated being high with my panic attack.

I guess what I'm trying to say to you, is that it's all in your head. You just have to overcome it. I know it's easier said than done, but its possible. Dont push yourself to do something that your body doesn't want to do. Take it easy on the weed smoking. Be patient about it. You'll be able to enjoy it again, just takes time!

Meanwhile, keep those grades up and enjoy your youth, there'll be plenty of other times to get high...! You only get to experience high school once, enjoy it while you can, because its the best time of your life!

[jakester]

Almost anyone will have a panic attack given enough THC in their bloodstream. Chances are MJ is telling you to lay off her. If you get panicy at a single hit you should just quit. Don't force what feels wrong. I love LSD but if my sister takes a hit ever again she will likely never be allowed to leave the psyche ward. Everyone is different, listen to your body.

Also, always know....it will pass. Give it time, real time, not perceived time.:D

[Travis18]

That made me laugh. You were just trippin man.

I remember a few months back, I got high one day and things "seemed" to be going so slow. You know, you actually feel like your dying and everything is going in very slow motion. I started tripping balls and it got worse. It happened about 2 or 3 more times and I had enough of it, and said "fuck it, it's all in my head". Which I knew it was. Never has happened to me since because I told myself the truth, which was that I was trippin out and wasn't going to die.

[Faddenator]

Donny, don't worry yourself, and don't listen to people telling you to quit.

I had the exact same problem a few years ago. Smoked everyday and loved it everytime. Then on a seemingly normal day, I smoked and freaked the hell out. It felt like I was dying and the only thing that seemed to help was to sit outside in the cold and try and concentrate on something else.

Anyway, you have an anxiety disorder, the same thing I have. Doctors don't tell you much about it except that you can take a pill for it. I went and saw a psychiatrist and a psychologist about it, and they made it fairly easy to overcome.

Anxiety is completely based around the chemicals in our mind getting a little off-balance. This triggers what seems to be a subliminal response to certain situations: crowded areas, classrooms, being high, etc. almost anything can trigger a panic attack if the timing is right.

It's very important to remember one thing while in a panic attack. It literally IS NOT REAL. the fear is real, yes. the POUNDING heart is real. but the rationality behind all this happening is 100% FAKE and created IN YOUR MIND. it happens just as you describe... one thing will seem strange, then another, then the irrationality starts to pile up, and you actually believe you are dying - even though there is absolutely nothing that could possibly be causing you any harm.

Quitting smoking will only help you if people say its the right thing to do. Believe me, Ive been there - I was willing to take any suggestion given to me to stop the panic. The only real way to stop it is to take a good look at yourself.

It takes a good amount of practice, but you can train yourself to recognize the onset of a panic attack and make it go away before it even starts. There are a number of things you can do:

Work on your breathing. If you feel an attack coming on, don't allow your breathing patterns to change. keep them slow, deep, and constant. focus on your breath and be sure inhale and exhale at the same rate. 7 seconds in, 7 seconds out is a good rule.

Work on controlling the irrationality. Its not quite as easy as telling yourself its okay, you need to KNOW there is no danger. not think it, but really KNOW it. You need to understand that no matter what you are feeling, you are perfectly safe! No one has ever died from a panic attack, or from smoking weed. YOU WONT BE THE FIRST!

Lastly, work on overcoming the fear. This is is difficult, but you need to force yourself into panic inducing situations, to reinforce that you have nothing to fear. this is THE MOST important step, as there is nothing more rewarding than being able to confidently throw yourself at your fears knowing they cannot harm you.

It may sound a little cliche, but in the world of panic attacks, there is nothing to fear, NOT EVEN fear itself. The fear is nothing more than an irrational feeling.

Obviously, psychiatrists are better at helping you with this. If you are really concerned, ask your parents to set you up with one. You will most likely be able to get some Xanax too... which is good shit if taken in moderation. VERY addicting though, so be careful.

I hope you can overcome this! I was able to, so can you. Good luck, friend! :thumbsup:

btw, I didn't spell check this. so sorry about any errors :jointsmile:

[medic1]

:jointsmile:There is some good advise in a number of the posts that have been submitted. I think most serious smokers of cannabis have had the same experience at one time or another. If you continue to smoke try to limit yourself to indica strains, they are more relaxing and can have a narcotic effect to reduce anxiety. You may also want to limit your smoking to places that are conducive to good vibes. Setting has a great deal to do with what goes on in your head. Let cannabis be something that enhances your life not detracts from it. Only you can be the judge. All things in moderation if the key to life.:smokin:

[Ocotillo]

Was it as panicked as that cop that stole weed from evidence, made brownies, ate WAY too many, and called the cops on himself. I'm sure this YouTube video is not new, but it keeps getting better every time!
YouTube - "Stoned Cop Calls 911: A Drama" (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FHTzpXyXO-4)
"Time is going by really, really, really slow." BTW, I think the best version is this one with the stick figures sketch artist recreation. Enjoy!

[esc420pot]

Donny, listen to my story.....

When I was 18, it was the summer after my first year in college. However, I did not go away to a 4 year college after high school. I continued to live at home with my parents while I went to a local Community College in town. I smoked all throughout high school, all day every day. I smoked in the morning before going to school. I smoked during lunch time. and we smoked as soon as we got out of school. Needless to say, I had AWFUL grades, hence the community college.

I had always been able to smoke with the best of them. I could smoke some of the best weed you could smoke, multiple bong rips, and I'd be fine. Super stoned, but fine.

This is where the story applies to you (I think)
It was the night before I was to get my wisdom teeth out in the morning. I can't quite remember what I did that day, but I think I played a game of pickup basketball. (this will be relevant later on). Anyways, I remember it clearly. I was sitting up in my bedroom when I took a huge resin hit from my acrylic bong. Then it hit me. I couldn't regain my breath. My heart felt like it was going to explode. I didn't know if I had a collapsed lung or if I was having a heart attack or what.

I now know that what I experienced was a massive panic attack. Since then, I have transferred to a 4 year school and live on my own (with roommates.). I had quit smoking and got good grades at community college. It was until last year that I began to experience panic attacks without smoking, so I was put an an anti-anxiety med.

I just recently stopped taking them and am drug free. I also recently got a septoplasty back in December. I discovered I had a deviated septum, in which I couldn't breath out of my left nostril at all.

Now, what I think my issue was, is that my nose became deviated the day prior to my resin induced panic attack. Once that occured, my brain was hardwired, to the anxiety I experienced, and associated being high with my panic attack.

I guess what I'm trying to say to you, is that it's all in your head. You just have to overcome it. I know it's easier said than done, but its possible. Dont push yourself to do something that your body doesn't want to do. Take it easy on the weed smoking. Be patient about it. You'll be able to enjoy it again, just takes time!

Meanwhile, keep those grades up and enjoy your youth, there'll be plenty of other times to get high...! You only get to experience high school once, enjoy it while you can, because its the best time of your life!

Wow you have told almost the exact same experience i had. I to cant breath out my left nostril from a broken nose in the past. I use to smoke nonstop all day every day and one day i had the same prob. i felt i couldnt breath and got dizzy as well as atingly sensation in my left fingers. i thought i was having a heart attack so was rushed to the ER. Turned out to be a massive panic attack. i started to get them everytime i smoked so i got put on meds. i tried not to smoke but i loved weed to much so i would take 1-2 hits ever so often, i would get anxiety but not to bad. After a while i got so sick of it i just said fuk it if this is how ima die so be it and smoked a .7 to my dome and felt strong axiety almost instantly but kept smoking. Ithen started playin video games to keep my mind occupied and the anxiety went away. Now i just dont smoke exessive amounts at once and just do things to keep my mind occupied. Basically your right its just all inn your head. you gotta tell yourself your all good your just high. Somtimes its hard but ull get fed up eventually and just say fuck it. And donny it also depends on ur tolerance and the persons way of thinking. Just smoke lil 1 hitters and dont hold in. keep doin it lil by lil untill your tollerance builds up and if you start trippin out do something that keeps you hella occupied to were you dont think about the anxiety, such as video games or fixing/making homemade smoking devices. Always remember mind over matter!

[esc420pot]

Donny, don't worry yourself, and don't listen to people telling you to quit.

I had the exact same problem a few years ago. Smoked everyday and loved it everytime. Then on a seemingly normal day, I smoked and freaked the hell out. It felt like I was dying and the only thing that seemed to help was to sit outside in the cold and try and concentrate on something else.

Anyway, you have an anxiety disorder, the same thing I have. Doctors don't tell you much about it except that you can take a pill for it. I went and saw a psychiatrist and a psychologist about it, and they made it fairly easy to overcome.

Anxiety is completely based around the chemicals in our mind getting a little off-balance. This triggers what seems to be a subliminal response to certain situations: crowded areas, classrooms, being high, etc. almost anything can trigger a panic attack if the timing is right.

It's very important to remember one thing while in a panic attack. It literally IS NOT REAL. the fear is real, yes. the POUNDING heart is real. but the rationality behind all this happening is 100% FAKE and created IN YOUR MIND. it happens just as you describe... one thing will seem strange, then another, then the irrationality starts to pile up, and you actually believe you are dying - even though there is absolutely nothing that could possibly be causing you any harm.

Quitting smoking will only help you if people say its the right thing to do. Believe me, Ive been there - I was willing to take any suggestion given to me to stop the panic. The only real way to stop it is to take a good look at yourself.

It takes a good amount of practice, but you can train yourself to recognize the onset of a panic attack and make it go away before it even starts. There are a number of things you can do:

Work on your breathing. If you feel an attack coming on, don't allow your breathing patterns to change. keep them slow, deep, and constant. focus on your breath and be sure inhale and exhale at the same rate. 7 seconds in, 7 seconds out is a good rule.

Work on controlling the irrationality. Its not quite as easy as telling yourself its okay, you need to KNOW there is no danger. not think it, but really KNOW it. You need to understand that no matter what you are feeling, you are perfectly safe! No one has ever died from a panic attack, or from smoking weed. YOU WONT BE THE FIRST!

Lastly, work on overcoming the fear. This is is difficult, but you need to force yourself into panic inducing situations, to reinforce that you have nothing to fear. this is THE MOST important step, as there is nothing more rewarding than being able to confidently throw yourself at your fears knowing they cannot harm you.

It may sound a little cliche, but in the world of panic attacks, there is nothing to fear, NOT EVEN fear itself. The fear is nothing more than an irrational feeling.

Obviously, psychiatrists are better at helping you with this. If you are really concerned, ask your parents to set you up with one. You will most likely be able to get some Xanax too... which is good shit if taken in moderation. VERY addicting though, so be careful.

I hope you can overcome this! I was able to, so can you. Good luck, friend! :thumbsup:

btw, I didn't spell check this. so sorry about any errors :jointsmile:
OMG this exactly right! this is exactly what iv concluded over my years of anxiety. You realy put it on the dot, good job Fad!