tattoo400
10-27-2009, 07:39 PM
HHello, I have enjoyed the wonderful (for me) best freind known as Cannabis Sativa/Indica since I was 13 years old but little did I know......life was going to give me a story that when told will leave any person stop and think. I will try to nutshell this, As said before I started getting faded when I was 13,broken home.....dad left,moms crazy, ya know. So everything was fine till around 15 years old when two life changing events took place. I was a HUGE Grateful Dead head (long hair, hemp sandles,hemp belt,walking to school barefoot....the whole nine. I was happy yet lonely as could be. Ariund the age 15-16 I started going to the bathroom what was in reality every 15 minutes due the sheer volume of coke, gateraid and such. My mom said to me "I think you are Diabetic". I didn't even know what that meant, She took me to a doctor where they told me I was type 1 diabetic and would need shots for the rest of my life. My blood sugar at that time was 936 and if I would have waited longer I would have been in a coma. The other life changing element at that time was the angel sent from God that is my fiance (Cindi). We have been together thru thick and thin (a son who we gave up for adoption as an open odoption because we were so young) My love for music grew as well but in a much different direction, I was really into Metallica even from the age of ten and slipped into apit of self loathing and self destruction. As far as I was concerned I was the devil's son and doomed to a life of pain and suffering. When I started to go to raves and feeling the awesome feelings to be had listening to that genre of music I knew I wasn't hate personified (by this time I had already tattooed 2 pairs of 666's on me along with a goat on my neck)> I distinctly remember having the most painful headache I ever had at a rave in Nov 2006. I suffer'd from the headaches for the fallowing 3 years. I did see several doctors and was given pills that didn't work or made me throw up more than I already was (I had been throwing up about every morning for a good 2 years). Around Aug of this year I started to notice my vision was getting weird and thought that my eyes were going out due to my Diabetes and had them checked but both eye docs said my eyes were fine. Near Aug 18th I backed my car into a delivery truck at work,it was at that moment that I knew I needed to see another eye doc. I had also made a mistake at work and my boss said I needed to go to the eye doc. I called my Diabetes doc and she sent me to an eye doctor. They did thier tests and he came back and said that my eyes were fine. He sugested I get an MRI. I went the fallowing Tuesday and got the MRI and went home. A few hours later I got a call from my doc and she said " are you sitting down?" I said no she said "you may wanna sit for this" I jokingly said, why? is it a tumor?? and she said YES, and its very large and needs to be removed ASAP. So I made the appt to see the Nuerosurgen the fallowing week. I did so and the brain surgen said I didn't want to see the pictures of this huge tumor. We set the date for the 25th of August. I have never been so scared in my life! I had to write a fuckin will!!.....I am only 28! I didn't get angry, I was just flat scared. The stats on what I got are flat amazing, there have been less than 50 people in the U.S. ever to get a Clear Cell Meningioma grade 2 tumor. I do think mine was the biggest. One thing it wasn't though was cancer (thank God) no just 84 grams-17x11x6 cm's worth of benign tumor. After I woke in the ICU I was in what I would have equate to HELL on earth. I was blind from the tumor still, with a huge scar across my head from ear to ear,,,,,,not to mention the horrible device needed to pee which I had to go thru 4 times total......longer story tell anyone who actually reads this. I was in that hell for 5 days when I finally said F this I am going home. No more than a few days later I was blazin again (VS Vicodin) and now finaly at the Smokeout Festival I got what I think is a license. I have succesfuly grown my own bomby's but cannot do so now (as I am still too blind to drive or grow). So that be the story .....if anyone reads this .......I am RARE