cannobis
04-26-2009, 02:51 AM
Hi Fellows! Sorry in advance that my first post is a downer, but please help if you can. SWIM is 17, and i've been chiefin since around 12--seems like a lot longer tho! I recently got some Sour Diesel over here in the Bay. & at the time I had 0 tol. I rolled a pinner J and burned it to ash in like 90 seconds. I later discovered that that was my first time with a near-pure Sativa strain. I was blitzed! And sadly, I experienced a panic attack. Fuck. It sucked. Though this is not uncommon for me.
I became hyper-conscious of my heart beating. I just started freakin. You know how this is: you're anxious bc of your heart, then that anxiety makes it worse, and it escalates and you find yourself fuckin pacing & your mind is a mess! And that's about all there's to it. I know when your experiencing this, it's the pits. You think you're gonna die of fear.
I have mitral valve prolapse ( heart condition ) and this makes me much more prone to anxiety. [This is a common condition in tall skinny people (look it up; you may have it).
I don't know what the deal is. I get the impression most people are hurting over their heart rate during a freak episode... Anyway, I was good a bit later, but then the next morning I had a toke and those scary feelings started hauntingme again and I panicked... I have come to the conclusion that it was not the pot doing this to me. It probably influenced it, but the panic attack was my doing. That could have happened to me while sober, but being high just made it overwhelming and made me feel helpless or something. I do have depression, ADHD. I don't think Schitzo or Bipolar. I still want to take Acid, Shrooms. I've always been discouraged towards these more potent drugs because of the crap my mind subjects me to. I believe a panic attack and bad trip and completely different. Honestly, a bad trip on acid would probably be less intense than that damn panic attack after the joint. Bad trips are meaningful; panicking is usually just retarded paranoia! knowhumsayin?!
I became hyper-conscious of my heart beating. I just started freakin. You know how this is: you're anxious bc of your heart, then that anxiety makes it worse, and it escalates and you find yourself fuckin pacing & your mind is a mess! And that's about all there's to it. I know when your experiencing this, it's the pits. You think you're gonna die of fear.
I have mitral valve prolapse ( heart condition ) and this makes me much more prone to anxiety. [This is a common condition in tall skinny people (look it up; you may have it).
I don't know what the deal is. I get the impression most people are hurting over their heart rate during a freak episode... Anyway, I was good a bit later, but then the next morning I had a toke and those scary feelings started hauntingme again and I panicked... I have come to the conclusion that it was not the pot doing this to me. It probably influenced it, but the panic attack was my doing. That could have happened to me while sober, but being high just made it overwhelming and made me feel helpless or something. I do have depression, ADHD. I don't think Schitzo or Bipolar. I still want to take Acid, Shrooms. I've always been discouraged towards these more potent drugs because of the crap my mind subjects me to. I believe a panic attack and bad trip and completely different. Honestly, a bad trip on acid would probably be less intense than that damn panic attack after the joint. Bad trips are meaningful; panicking is usually just retarded paranoia! knowhumsayin?!