Critiques/Opinions very welcomed and encouraged

[zihowie]

I tried to explain myself and get another outside perspective/help. The reason im making another thread is because the last was extremely jumbled and I didnt feel I conveyed the right purpose of my thread. Someone hit upon it but let me re-iterate quickly.

After 3/4 days of once-daily smoking Im much better mentally and believe I can pull through whatever erks me with the help of like-minded and very intelligent individuals. *digression* Now, I just came up with this and feels it fits perfectly.

In my mind and displayed in the cliche of the Devil on one shoulder and God on ther other when in a pickled, I cant decide what to do. Instead of the cliche I have one of me knowingly and confident trying to emerge and just say it without thinking and the other wanting to run away, cry and go hide under some covers. I know what your thinking and most probably do have some doubt, but I just cant bring myself to the first option and spit it out. The only time Ive felt that confidence is when I was abusing anxiety meds. The thing is I think its my anxiety that is hindering me from the overcoming the dilemna.
I dread talking to a therapist or whatever their title is, but I know i need to for my sake. I dont want to come off like a drug seeker and on the other had i know i need to get it (or think i do). You decide and please please let me know.

Thanks for everything you guys are doing here with the knowledge, help, etc.

[Dave Byrd]

You know, Zihowie, I listen to health related questions all day long. That's what I do. I get 'em by phone, in person, on email, and by fax, and I've got to tell you, I cannot for the life of me understand exactly what you're asking here. Are you asking whether you should go see a prescribing doctor for anxiety medicine?

[Coelho]

Dave, i think he means what he did post here:

http://boards.cannabis.com/medicinal-cannabis-health/165344-sick-life.html

[zihowie]

Just checked back in so..

I guess im not really asking anything except your take on what I explained.

Ive felt grey and dull and not really excited about much lately and I attribute that to my abstinence of the herb. I feel loads better now that ive gotten to smoke.

[Coelho]

Ive felt grey and dull and not really excited about much lately and I attribute that to my abstinence of the herb. I feel loads better now that ive gotten to smoke.

I also feel this way whenever i stay some days without smoking... so, for avoiding this and keeping happy and excited about the life i medicate myself every day. :thumbsup::jointsmile:

[zihowie]

haha, since i dont have that privilege right now Im trying to find things to do and occupy my time so im not constantly thinking about shit.