Why Im thankful Im addicted to MJ today!

[theforthdrive]

I was thinking about writing this thread when I got side tracked by this one:

http://boards.cannabis.com/medicinal-cannabis-health/159868-marijuana-addiction.html

Kinda pist me off! Braindamaged speaks in such broad terms it not funny. and to speak in such a nature to people that use marijuana in a respective medical nature. Dude, thats like me going onto a christian web site and offering a link to any of the users that want to discuss atheism. ok, enough rant, but it did change my direction of this thread!

One of my two major reason I use medical marijuana is back pain. I was diagnosed with an ailment when I was young, car accidents and life in general has made it nothing but worse. My early treatment was vicodine and soma! YEAAA! and also chiropractic adjustment. A couple of years later I rediscovered MMJ from a dear friend that was in med school at the time. I stopped using the pharm. drugs shortly after. I always kept some on my shelf for a rainy day. Somehow over the course of time and because of a few people that abuse these substances they were no longer available to me and my doc would only give me flexorall. (sp?)

enough background... because of resent economic hardships I have not had my monthly adjustments in over six months. most of the time I just suck it up and deal....and smoke at night! I drove two four hour drives in 24hr period and it wreaked me! I was so bad I took a flexoral and passed out. Today, Im better! thank god.... but the residual effects of the flexorall are clear. Im dizzy, weak, and tired. I drove to a city Ive been to a dozen times and couldnt form a clear path in my head of how to get to the store! My mind was lets say "turned to mush" to quote braindamaged. I can be really high and in my mind form a path of where Im going, but hours after the pharm. drug I can hardly function. I wasted today! I barely made it to take my dog outside for a walk, nevermind the workout and jog I had planned!

So I apologize for this rant. And will even apologize for leaving so many posts today... i just couldnt get the energy to leave my desk. even to make food!

So today, Im thankful that tomorrow Ill wake up and be better and know that I can make it until 6pm without smoking and then my pain of the day will disappear! And Im thankful that I live in a state where I can mind my own business and medicate myself in a way that works with my life. Im thankful that there are people like all of you that understand the pain. I hope you understand that I know my pain may not be your pain.... Ive never had to look death in the eyes! I admire all of you that made it thru far worse than I have! I would never have audacity to say that you may be addicted because you've found something that works!

Bottom line.... If my alternative to being "addicted" to MJ is a life of how I feel today from Phram. drugs I have only one comment...


SMOKE WEED EVERYDAY! Do you feel me?

[Mcnizzlebery]

I feel you man, and hey if they call this addiction think about how an alchoholic feels. Thats a real issue not a "im an idiot who smoked to much now i blame mj for my shortcoming and flaws".

[painretreat]

t4dr: Thanks for the post, could have written it myself. I live a life, very similar to you and understand, only too well!!!

I doubt you are 'addicted'! You use your med resourcefully. I have a true addict brother and a friend. Believe me, you have a bit to go! A true addict, cannot stop token til it is all gone. Can't save it until the evening, due to price; but you (and I) can!

I do hope a day comes I find one that makes me laugh as much as I did when I was in college and did not need it, do dumb things and party all the time! I was always a happy drunk or mj user. Now, I can't laugh for the pain or fear it will drop in and spoil a good time!

My hope that you will get better will always be with you!:thumbsup:

[TurnyBright]

I agree with you, man, pharmaceutical drugs (pain, sleeping, antidepressant) are a bad basket. They work in subtle ways to make me miserable, in my experience. If I'm ingesting the drug for a medical purpose, I wan to KNOW how the drug makes me feel, not exist in some sort of ethereal emotional nowhere land because I've eaten a pink+blue chemical cocktail.

Weed is where it's at.

[theforthdrive]

was sarcastically saying I was addicted. I spent two and a half years in an all male boarding school (reform school) when I was in high school. The only ways off campus were a visit to the library on sundays and AA meetings. I used to go to get out but man, there is no way I can identify with true addicts! (Im thinking of that scene in Half Baked.... I used to suck d*ck to rock, did you ever suck d*ck for weed?)

honestly, I would say the addiction isnt in the weed, but the covering of true deep emotional problems! We all have that friend that smokes too much and treats MJ like a drug! they smoke more than us, are almost always high, have to be high to go do normal stuff like school, work, shop, play, ect. yet, despite the amazing amount of time they spend with MJ they cant tell you anything about it! Not indica VS. sativas, not strains, not the history of why its outlawed, not the medical benefits, just that its good weed!

[TurnyBright]

We all have that friend that smokes too much and treats MJ like a drug! they smoke more than us, are almost always high, have to be high to go do normal stuff like school, work, shop, play, ect. yet, despite the amazing amount of time they spend with MJ they cant tell you anything about it! Not indica VS. sativas, not strains, not the history of why its outlawed, not the medical benefits, just that its good weed!

Um... cannabis IS a drug. To treat it any other way is sort of self-deception. Maybe your friend simply doesn't care about indicasativastrainslawsmedicine and just wants to smoke some stuff that makes him feel a way he likes.