confused
03-06-2005, 01:09 PM
my best freind is goign out with my ex and shese just sent me an email with a crappy poem goign on about how ime a slut ( which ime not) and loads of shit that my ex told her so i wrote a poem back to her but i dont know whether i should send it dous it sound okay or do you think i should just leave it and ignore the email she sent me
When I think about some of the shit that Iā??ve had
Thinking about it just makes me go mad
But the thing is its shit youā??ve put me through
Attempted suicide well thatā??s down to you
Because When Iā??m lying in bed I canā??t sleep Iā??m awake
Thinking about the choices in life I should make
I know that all this stuff is inside of my brain
But u donā??t understand Iā??m going insane
Yes the world is unfair
Itā??s the burden that sometimes you just have to bear
On my own I sit here
Feeling loneliness feeling fear
I think to myself should I take a knife
And End my life
Get a gun and shoot the bullet straight through my head
Till the bloods seeping out till Iā??m gone, till Iā??m dead
Laid out on my bed
The bedclothes stained red
Blood dripping over the sheets
And Iā??m thinking when Iā??m dead who can I see who can I meet
But Iā??m stuck in the middle of heaven and hell
Having to listen to the chimes of the death clocks bell
I cut my self to take the pain away
I donā??t why I did it, stop asking me ok!
I have scars that I donā??t think will ever heal
And what Iā??m saying here all is real
Thereā??s a baby and it is growing inside of me
But I donā??t know the man so it wonā??t have a daddy
I was drunk I was crying he said heā??d get me drink
The drink was spiked, I didnā??t know him but I was drunk I didnā??t think
Maybe it was my fault could I have asked for it
But I know that thinking about it well itā??s not going to do shit
Yes I admit it I gave my boyfriends best friend head
And I went with his brother so now my exe wishes I was dead
But my ex got head of you as well
But he doesnā??t tell me that when heā??s calling me a slut and putting me through hell
I miss when we were close and he held me in his arms
He loved me and told me heā??d never let me get into any harm
I could say I still think about him I lie awake at night
But Iā??m not going to lie because I donā??t think its right
Iā??m just pissed of because why did he have to lie
He said heā??d done nothing wrong and that I fucked it up by going with another guy
But youā??re welcome to him because heā??ll do the same to you
And youā??ll be the one lying awake wondering what did you say and what did you do
I hope that you realise that your boyfriends a prick
But u probably wont have time your to busy sucking his dik
I thought you were my friend that we were going to die together
You said weā??d stay mates through thick and thin forever
Its obvious you were just using me to
And I hope like me; nick does it to you
When I think about some of the shit that Iā??ve had
Thinking about it just makes me go mad
But the thing is its shit youā??ve put me through
Attempted suicide well thatā??s down to you
Because When Iā??m lying in bed I canā??t sleep Iā??m awake
Thinking about the choices in life I should make
I know that all this stuff is inside of my brain
But u donā??t understand Iā??m going insane
Yes the world is unfair
Itā??s the burden that sometimes you just have to bear
On my own I sit here
Feeling loneliness feeling fear
I think to myself should I take a knife
And End my life
Get a gun and shoot the bullet straight through my head
Till the bloods seeping out till Iā??m gone, till Iā??m dead
Laid out on my bed
The bedclothes stained red
Blood dripping over the sheets
And Iā??m thinking when Iā??m dead who can I see who can I meet
But Iā??m stuck in the middle of heaven and hell
Having to listen to the chimes of the death clocks bell
I cut my self to take the pain away
I donā??t why I did it, stop asking me ok!
I have scars that I donā??t think will ever heal
And what Iā??m saying here all is real
Thereā??s a baby and it is growing inside of me
But I donā??t know the man so it wonā??t have a daddy
I was drunk I was crying he said heā??d get me drink
The drink was spiked, I didnā??t know him but I was drunk I didnā??t think
Maybe it was my fault could I have asked for it
But I know that thinking about it well itā??s not going to do shit
Yes I admit it I gave my boyfriends best friend head
And I went with his brother so now my exe wishes I was dead
But my ex got head of you as well
But he doesnā??t tell me that when heā??s calling me a slut and putting me through hell
I miss when we were close and he held me in his arms
He loved me and told me heā??d never let me get into any harm
I could say I still think about him I lie awake at night
But Iā??m not going to lie because I donā??t think its right
Iā??m just pissed of because why did he have to lie
He said heā??d done nothing wrong and that I fucked it up by going with another guy
But youā??re welcome to him because heā??ll do the same to you
And youā??ll be the one lying awake wondering what did you say and what did you do
I hope that you realise that your boyfriends a prick
But u probably wont have time your to busy sucking his dik
I thought you were my friend that we were going to die together
You said weā??d stay mates through thick and thin forever
Its obvious you were just using me to
And I hope like me; nick does it to you