On April 19th, 2008 My Father Died of a Heart Attack

[rebgirl420]

While attempting to get his boat into the water to fish.

My 4-20 was laced with grief and the worst saddness I'll ever have. I would gladly have cancer again a million times to get my daddy back.

He was cremated and we have his ashes on the mantle. I have his ashes in a bracelet on my wrist.

He was 45 (his birthday was on April 25) and he was a healthy and active man. He was 6'0 foot and 190 pounds. He was an avid fishermen and a hunter.

He was also my smoking buddy. In the mornings he would come home from his job and we would watch Fox and Friends, talk politics, and smoke a bowl.

He was my best friend. He made me into the person I am today.

He taught me to never accept handouts and to have a strong work ethic. He made me interested into politics and it's still a passion of mine. He got me into great music like Zeppelin, The Doors, Floyd, Jefferson Airplane, and many, many more.

He was the best dad ever. I can't even begin to tell you all of the great stories.

I'm just glad that when the cops found him and searched his pockets, they didn't find his weed or his bowl. It's mine now.

Here's the obituarie,

Obituaries for Pittsburgh, Greensburg and southwestern Pennsylvania - Tribune-Review (http://www.pittsburghlive.com/x/tribunereview/obituaries/index.html?mode=view&obit_id=152143)

[maxsuperdanks]

Christ, your dad's younger than mine, and in better shape...


My heart goes out to you and your family, I can't imagine what I'd do. Your dad sounds like an exceptional man. I hope I get to sit down and toke at least just once with my father in my lifetime (he used to smoke, but now doesn't).


Once again, I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine.

[rebgirl420]

Thanks.

The whole situation is absolutely fucking killing me. It's like this intense hole has taken over my body. I keep on thinking he's gonna come right on through the door, ready to tell me about his fishing trip and ready to bitch about Hillary Clinton.

It hurts so fucking bad.

[maxsuperdanks]

Thanks.

The whole situation is absolutely fucking killing me. It's like this intense hole has taken over my body. I keep on thinking he's gonna come right on through the door, ready to tell me about his fishing trip and ready to bitch about Hillary Clinton.

It hurts so fucking bad.

I can't even imagine, I'm scared for my mom, she's going in for emergency hysterectomy in like 20 days.... She's got tumors in her uterus up to her ribcage, along with spinal stenosis (the discs in her neck are growing bone spurs on the inside, shearing the nerve cords). That's why I'm trying to make cannabis painkillers for her instead of vicadins and shit, that's why I'm growing even though it's a huge crime here.

But damn if she's dead ... I might as well die too...


I'm almost crying thinking about what you're going through. I've lost a lot of loved ones... I know what it feels like to picture their smile, and laugh, thinking about the last time you've seen them, expecting to come home and have them ask how your day was...


Fuck if I could I'd give you a hug or something, shit must be so hard.

[hardon]

While I could never fully understand what emotions you are going through at the moment, I do know what it's like to lose a loved one. While the pain is immeasurable at this point, focus on the good things. Remember all the wonderful times you had with him, cherish those memories for ever. You said he made you into who you are today, so in a way he is still living though you. Surround yourself with loved ones, be it family or friends, or even an animal. It helps. Remember to keep your chin up, and do whatever you have to to come to some sort of closure...


My deepest sympathy goes out to you and your family.

[rebgirl420]

Thank you both so much.

I'm just glad the last thing we said to each other was:

Dad:Okay I love you, have fun and be safe, call!
Me: Haha okay Dad, I love you too!

Me and him are alike in so many ways. So I'm proud of that.
John and I have decided that when we have children I will name one of my sons after him.

It was because of him that I am a cancer survivor. He worked two jobs to pay for my hospital care, THEN drove me to Pittsburgh EVERY FUCKING DAY FOR 2 YEARS. Stopping on holidays and my birthday. He sat beside me when I lost my hair, and he had to shave my head. He offered to cut his own hair so I wouldn't feel alone. And when Make-A-Wish gave me my trip to New York City and Comedy Central he was there beside me the whole time.

[Breukelen advocaat]

Dear T, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I know what it is like to lose a parent at a young age, and I know that this was a shock to you and your father's loved ones, but I can assure you that while the grief you are experiencing will gradually fade, the wonderful memories of the time you spent with him will remain. My deepest condolences. BA

[rebgirl420]

Thank you for the nice words BA.

[Reefer Rogue]

That's devestating, i feel for you with all my heart rite now. There's really nothing i can say to ease this tremendous pain. This won't be a one post and forget, you're in my thoughts. You don't deserve this. Stay strong and carry on in his memory. May he rest in peace.

[Greenthing]

Hi Rebgirl,
It is a great loss when someone close to passes away and what makes it worse as in your case when they are so young, but life go's on so just remember the good times that you had with your Daddy, also you know he would have wanted you to be happy not sad.
Your sense of loss will pass in time but you will never forget your Daddy.
Please accept deepest sympathy for you great loss and keep your chin up and be proud of your fathers memory.
Yours sincerely Greenthing.

[Dark]

Hi rebgirl.
My heart is with you and your family. I can't even imagine what it's like to lose a loved one, but what I do know is that from what you've posted so far, I can see your dad would be very very proud of you for what you've done and what you've become as a person. Don't let what happened change you.

[stinkyattic]

I'm so sorry Reb. Best wishes to you and your family.

[jsn9333]

Your dad sounds like one of the most awesome dad's ever. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My father died my junior year in college, and I remember how incredible the stinging pain of loss was. Just hang on.

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." - Jesus

jason

[XXBlaze of DesiréXX]

I am very sorry to hear that reb!:( Best wishes go out to u and ur family. I hope ur okay and be strong and u will get through this, it will be hard but i know u can do it girl;) Ill be thinkin of u, and im very sorry again.:) he sounds like a great person & father to u! R.I.P Reb's Dad


keep on tokin:stoned:

[liamizzle]

Sorry For your Loss.

May he R.I.P

[Psycho4Bud]

DAMN....born the same year and our birthday is only 7 days apart. Makes a person think.....

Sorry for your loss...he sounds like a VERY cool man. Best of wishes to you and your family.

Have a good one!:jointsmile:

[Innominate]

I hope you pick up your strength from this loss. Always be yourself and he will remain within you.

[smok3y]

Hey Reb, really sorry to hear about your loss.. My deepest sympathy goes out to you and your family..

Hope you and your family get through these tough times ok..

Your dad sounded like a real cool person.. Chilled out laid back guy..

May he R.I.P

[ghosty]

Damn Reb, really sorry to hear about your dad, I'm sure he was a really great guy. Hope things brighten up again soon. And remember in ways, he will always be with you no matter what.

[ijustloveweed]

Very sorry to hear that, i lost my dad when i was 12 and i can say the only thing that helps is time, just be proud you smoked with him and you two were close. As others have said think of all the good times you had together

[420_24/7]

Once again, reb, Im very very sorry.
I can't even imagine losing my dad.

[silkyblue]

:(


Im so sorry you lost your Father Reb

hold fast


hes with you

your Dads name will never die



with sympathy

[Its a Plant]

So sorry to hear about this reb. Stay stong and chin up! r.i.p.

[jagarr]

i am very sorry to hear about your loss!

im really close to my parents as well (although they annoy the shit out of me sometimes) and i love them to death. no idea what im going to do without them when the time comes =(

stay strong kiddo

[Shovelhandle]

My dad died of a heart attack one Christmas Eve, and I love my dad too. So I kind of understand. My sorries for loss, Rebgirl.


BEYOND THE SUNSET

HANK WILLIAMS Lyrics

Should you go first and I remain,
To walk the road alone
I'll live in memory's garden dear,
With happy days we've known
In spring I'll wait for roses red,
When fades the lilacs bloom
And in early fall when brown leaves fall,
I'll catch a glimpse of you
Should you go first and I remain,
For battles to be fought
Each thing you've touched along the way,
Will be a hallowed spot
I'll hear your voice I'll see your smile
Though blindly I may grope
The memory of your helping hand,
Will buoy me on with hope

Beyond the sunset
Oh blissful morning
When with our savior,
Heaven is begun
Earth's toiling ended,
Oh glorious dawning
Beyond the sunset
When day is done

Should you go first and I remain,
To finish with the scroll
No lessening shadows shall ever creep in
To make this life seem droll
We've known so much of happiness,
We've had our cup of joy
And memory is one gift of god,
That death cannot destroy
I want to know each step you take,
That I may walk the same
For someday down that lonely road,
You'll hear me call your name
Should you go first and I remain,
One thing I'll have you do
Walk slowly down that long long path,
For soon I'll follow you

In that fair homeland
We'll know no parting
Beyond the sunset
For ever more.

[PlantHeadJ]

You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. I'm so sorry. Try to keep on keepin on...

[apocolips31]

I am sorry for what has happened. I know it must be tough, my best friends dad died recently and he was like a second father to me. It was rough for a while but, with time and thinking of all the good memory's you will get through it.

[happiestmferoutthere]

I'm so, so sorry for your loss, Theresa. Your an awesome girl with awesome strength. :sadcrying
Remember all the great times and take the all lessons he taught you into your life as you go. Then when someone says what an cool thing you did, you can smile and say, " Yeah! My dad taught me that!" ;)

[Telesong]

Wow, my dad is about the same age and I can't even imagine what I would do without him. In the past six months two of my good friends have passed away though, One died on their 18th birthday and the other on Christmas day. Every time I think about it I start to tear up. My grandpa passed away recently too, about 2 years ago just before i graduated highschool. Shit sucks man and I there isn't much people can say to get you through this. Stay strong girl, stay strong.

[Deige]

So sorry for your loss Theresa, my deepest sympathy goes out to you and your family.

[Coelho]

Im very sorry to hear it... My heart goes to you in this sad and grievous moments... But remember that even if he may not be physically with you anymore, he always will be alive in the memories and hearts of everybody who loved him... So carry on! And my best wishes for you!

[rebgirl420]

Thank you guys so much. It's nice to know I'm not alone at this shitty time.

[Greenthing]

Hi Rebgirl,
I dont think that you will ever be alone the posts on here prove it, so many friends. :thumbsup:

[FakeBoobsRule]

RG, I'm so very sorry for your loss and I can't imagine what your going through to lose him so suddenly and young. My prayers and thought of hope go out to you and your family.

[420Dank]

all i can say is : u have to know he is there with you and ur family all the time.
it might sound like bs but no.
i am sure that he WILL be there when u'll most need him.
i cant or even want to imagine going thru what u went and r stil going thru.
i send you my positive thoughts and best wishes.

[Barney Trouble]

That's terrible, im very sorry for your loss.

[blizz]

mylife has been surrounded by death,iv lost 3 freinds in 3 years, theres people that have been so awsome in my life iv lost it fucking hurts, i hope u get through it,much love:thumbsup:

[MadSativa]

Wow, Reb I had no idea, I am so sorry for your loss, I can not even imagine. I know you are a strong and resiliant young woman, and I know your dad will live through you and your family. My thoughts are with you, I hope the days get better soon, and summer is a good time to remeber loved ones.

[Markass]

While attempting to get his boat into the water to fish.

My 4-20 was laced with grief and the worst saddness I'll ever have. I would gladly have cancer again a million times to get my daddy back.

He was cremated and we have his ashes on the mantle. I have his ashes in a bracelet on my wrist.

He was 45 (his birthday was on April 25) and he was a healthy and active man. He was 6'0 foot and 190 pounds. He was an avid fishermen and a hunter.

He was also my smoking buddy. In the mornings he would come home from his job and we would watch Fox and Friends, talk politics, and smoke a bowl.

He was my best friend. He made me into the person I am today.

He taught me to never accept handouts and to have a strong work ethic. He made me interested into politics and it's still a passion of mine. He got me into great music like Zeppelin, The Doors, Floyd, Jefferson Airplane, and many, many more.

He was the best dad ever. I can't even begin to tell you all of the great stories.

I'm just glad that when the cops found him and searched his pockets, they didn't find his weed or his bowl. It's mine now.

Here's the obituarie,

Obituaries for Pittsburgh, Greensburg and southwestern Pennsylvania - Tribune-Review (http://www.pittsburghlive.com/x/tribunereview/obituaries/index.html?mode=view&obit_id=152143)

sorry about your loss...it's definitely worse when it's unexpected..hopefully you're dealing with it okay

[Halcyon420]

My Deepest sypathies no one can imagine how it feels!

I think the bracelet idea is really cool, stay safe & toke easy..

[birdgirl73]

Oh, Theresa, sweetie. I'm so sorry to read of this loss, and I apologize for having been so crammed with finals and end-of-school chores these last couple of weeks that I'm only just now getting on here and seeing this post. I'm heartbroken for you, babe, and your mom and grandmother. My deepest, most sincere condolences over the lost of your beloved father. How marvelous that y'all were as close as you were and that you'd told him you loved him when you last talked. Don't know if that memory makes it any better right now, but long into the future it will.

My heart goes out to you and your dear family. Hold tight to each other. Love well and grieve as much as you need to. It feels like it'll kill you at first, I know.

Much peace to you, Reb, honey. And much, much love. I'm so, so very sorry for your loss. Please extend my condolences to your family.

[orgasmic]

im so sorry for your loss,

stand strong and remember the great times you had,

rory

[BigDP]

The next time I toke it, it will be for you and your dad.

I feel so bad.. But im really happy that you both had a great relationship before he went to a better place.

He is probably watching down on you and feeling proud how well you have handled it.

Here's one for him. :rastabong:

[w33dsp34k]

I am extremely sorry to hear/read that.
Just reading that made me think of what would happen if my dad died, and idk what I would do if that happened. Well, on the better note; I hope you eventually recover*

[w33dsp34k]

The next time I toke it, it will be for you and your dad.

I feel so bad.. But im really happy that you both had a great relationship before he went to a better place.

He is probably watching down on you and feeling proud how well you have handled it.

Here's one for him. :rastabong:

I think I have to do the same, Next hit I take, is for you, your dad, and the great relationship that you two had.

[Unknownfigure]

While attempting to get his boat into the water to fish.

My 4-20 was laced with grief and the worst saddness I'll ever have. I would gladly have cancer again a million times to get my daddy back.

He was cremated and we have his ashes on the mantle. I have his ashes in a bracelet on my wrist.

He was 45 (his birthday was on April 25) and he was a healthy and active man. He was 6'0 foot and 190 pounds. He was an avid fishermen and a hunter.

He was also my smoking buddy. In the mornings he would come home from his job and we would watch Fox and Friends, talk politics, and smoke a bowl.

He was my best friend. He made me into the person I am today.

He taught me to never accept handouts and to have a strong work ethic. He made me interested into politics and it's still a passion of mine. He got me into great music like Zeppelin, The Doors, Floyd, Jefferson Airplane, and many, many more.

He was the best dad ever. I can't even begin to tell you all of the great stories.

I'm just glad that when the cops found him and searched his pockets, they didn't find his weed or his bowl. It's mine now.

Here's the obituarie,

Obituaries for Pittsburgh, Greensburg and southwestern Pennsylvania - Tribune-Review (http://www.pittsburghlive.com/x/tribunereview/obituaries/index.html?mode=view&obit_id=152143)

I'm incredibly sad to hear about this. :( I'm a little late, but still... Hope you're staying strong.

[bradface]

Sounds like you had a great dad. I'm sorry for your loss.

[flyingimam]

To Rebgirl,

im really sorry for your loss. i know im late but felt i should say something when i came across this on the new posts. i hope things will be much better this coming 4/20:jointsmile::thumbsup: who knows maybe that HR 5843 gets somewhere by then!


also my bad for the thread hijack, but its weird when first post in 2 years goes like this updating an old thread.


Sounds like you had a great dad. I'm sorry for your loss.

dude! u have been registered since 2007 and this is your first post?!?!?!?! bumping a 5 month old thread on some1's deceased father? wtf lol r u :stoned:?

[Smokalotxxx]

Someday we're all gonna meet in heaven and have the most amazing party.

[ghosty]

Way to go douchebags, I'm sure reb doesnt really need a reminder of the event, by calling up a 5 month old thread.

[DTRave420]

Dear Rebgirl420,

Belated sympathy for you and yours on the passing of your father...:(

I saw his picture and he looked like a real cool dude...

If I may,I leave you this poem-

God grant that I may live to fish
until my dying day
And when it comes to my last cast
I then must humbly pray
When in the Lord's safe landing net,
I'm peacefully asleep
That in his mercy,I be judged
As big enough to keep...
-Author Unknown-

[beachguy in thongs]

Way to go douchebags, I'm sure reb doesnt really need a reminder of the event, by calling up a 5 month old thread.

Since, I didn't bring this up, though I've noticed, I just found out from my best friend's mother that his father died, a year and a half ago. I couldn't call him that day. His parents lived up in Amsterdam, NY, and, he lived in Philadelphia.

Saturday, well, Sunday, at 12:30 a.m., he called and we talked for an hour. I apologized for not calling on the day that I found out. It was the first time we have talked this century. Or, maybe the second. It's been a long century, already.

I am so glad that Mr. Yevoli is not up there alone. I know that you should feel a dear sense of pride, every time you see this thread on the boards. Rebgirl, your father's face is burnt in my mind. Every time I see him, it puts a smile on my face (and a fish, in my imaginary stomach).

[beachguy in thongs]

Sorry, I missed the deadline.

edit:...he live(s) in Philadelphia.
Not lived.

[the image reaper]

I didn't see this thread when it was fresh, RebGirl, just now caught it ... I am so sorry to hear of your loss, but very respectful of the way your Dad taught you responsibility ... (it has always shown on you :thumbsup:) ,,, God bless you and your Family :)

[Smokalotxxx]

Heaven supposed to be a perfect place where we can meet all our lost loved ones. I believe it would be like a perfect life in earth, where we can do anything we want anytime we want, including smoke weed, where bad feelings have no place. If it's boring it's not heaven.

[rebgirl420]

Thanks you guys.

It's okay, you all can bump my threads andy time you wish haha.

I'm not religious in any way but I appreciate your kind words.

I miss him like crazy but I try to not think about it too much. That's just how I deal. But I don't mind thinking about it here, you guys and gals are just so damn loving.

[vej33]

omg Reb, how have i never seen this post before????

i'm terribly sorry for your loss, but am incredibly happy that you had such a good relationship with him, and that things were on very good terms. it's such a disappointment when you can't get in those last few words.

i'm also amazed that i never knew you were a cancer survivor. not that i know you at all personally, but still, your dad must have been an incredibly inspiration for you. glad you're healthy :)

awesome that you guys toked together, i toked with my dad once. it was cool, we didn't talk about politics or anything. he did it so little that he just kind of got high and sunk into his own head.

hope you're doing well dear, i think naming one of your kids after him will be an honorable memorage :)

[Smokalotxxx]

Sorry darling...I just wanna say i really fell sorry for you, but i'm sure you're gonna be alright. Time heals almost everything and you definitely look like a strong girl.:thumbsup:

[daihashi]

I never saw this thread and almost feel bad that I didn't.

I'm sorry for your loss. Your father seems like a great man, he got you to think for yourself and instilled great values into you. Not to mention he had no shame in toking with you; something that is difficult for most parents to do I think.

I am not religious myself; but I wish you and your family the best. Life will go on and while I did not know your father I would say it's a very safe bet that your father is very proud of you.

:hippy:

[TheSmokingMonkey]

Hi Reb, I haven't been on here in forever but I just wanted to see how you are doing now that a little time has gone by. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss and I hope you are learning to survive without him.