Metaphor
11-28-2007, 02:32 PM
So ive known this girl for well over three years. Honestly, shes the greatest girl ive ever been with. We were in an pretty serious relationship in 05-06' but in the summer of 06 she moved from ny to florida. She had to go because her father got a better job opportunity and although he wasnt exactly poor or anything it was something he could not pass up.
At first i thought we would have to break up and go separate ways, never to cross paths again. To some extent this was true. She only came up to ny twice since she moved. The first time i didnt even see her because i thought it would hurt too much. The second time she stayed at my house for about a week or so over the summer. For that time things were great, just like they used to be.
Anyway, that was the summer and before she went to college. Now shes in a dorming in a new college, making a bunch of new friends. Basicly starting a new life. In a way im glad for her, she needs to move on and all that but fuck. She kinda just left me in the dust.
For about two weeks ive been trying to call her just to talk and tell her that i miss her but she never picks her phone up. The one time she picked up her phone after i said hey the first thing she said was 'oh, i thought you were so and so because i was just texting him' she abruptly hung up shortly after at 9:30 b/c 'she was tired'
On top of that one day when i signed on aim she signed off right after me, then i didnt see her on for a few days. I thought it was a little shady seeing as how shes the one whos always on when im the one who rarley. So i put her name on my other buddy list, the one where i talk to people that i dont know in real life, and voila, it turns out she blocked me.
Anyway after a few more days of frantic calls and text messages to no avail i figured it was time to formalize this 'break up' so i wrote her a long sincere message to her on facebook (yea i know but it was the only way i could reach her). I slept on it but no response yet. Right now it feels like im in purgatory. I dont want to do anything really, not even smoke, jerk off, i dont even feel like going to class (but im gunna do it anyway)
I dont know what i really expect any of you people to say, Its just that i didnt think i would feel this fuckin empty without someone who already hasnt physically been there. Maybe some of you have been in a long distance relationship, is there any key to keeping it together? i know everyone says communication communication communication but its kinda tough when she dosent pick up her phone or talk to me on aim.
I feel so fuckin stupid for thinking that one day things would go back to the way they were.
sorry for the long read but i dont really have anyone else to tell
At first i thought we would have to break up and go separate ways, never to cross paths again. To some extent this was true. She only came up to ny twice since she moved. The first time i didnt even see her because i thought it would hurt too much. The second time she stayed at my house for about a week or so over the summer. For that time things were great, just like they used to be.
Anyway, that was the summer and before she went to college. Now shes in a dorming in a new college, making a bunch of new friends. Basicly starting a new life. In a way im glad for her, she needs to move on and all that but fuck. She kinda just left me in the dust.
For about two weeks ive been trying to call her just to talk and tell her that i miss her but she never picks her phone up. The one time she picked up her phone after i said hey the first thing she said was 'oh, i thought you were so and so because i was just texting him' she abruptly hung up shortly after at 9:30 b/c 'she was tired'
On top of that one day when i signed on aim she signed off right after me, then i didnt see her on for a few days. I thought it was a little shady seeing as how shes the one whos always on when im the one who rarley. So i put her name on my other buddy list, the one where i talk to people that i dont know in real life, and voila, it turns out she blocked me.
Anyway after a few more days of frantic calls and text messages to no avail i figured it was time to formalize this 'break up' so i wrote her a long sincere message to her on facebook (yea i know but it was the only way i could reach her). I slept on it but no response yet. Right now it feels like im in purgatory. I dont want to do anything really, not even smoke, jerk off, i dont even feel like going to class (but im gunna do it anyway)
I dont know what i really expect any of you people to say, Its just that i didnt think i would feel this fuckin empty without someone who already hasnt physically been there. Maybe some of you have been in a long distance relationship, is there any key to keeping it together? i know everyone says communication communication communication but its kinda tough when she dosent pick up her phone or talk to me on aim.
I feel so fuckin stupid for thinking that one day things would go back to the way they were.
sorry for the long read but i dont really have anyone else to tell