My life is currently a living hell.

[DarkFire]

I havent smoke for over 2 weeks. Life to me seems extremely dull, and i feel depressed. After entering the world of weed, leaving is like entering pure hell. My dealer has been too busy for me. I would have asked other dealers, but i trusted this one, he gave the best bud ever. Everyday its "oh i didnt get it," or "yeah.. i didnt bring it." If i dont get some soon i will seriously b suicidal.

[DarkFire]

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but, today i got the courage to ask another dealer and forget about the other one. he says that he will get me some tomarrow, but ive heard that too many times and been utterly dissapointed too many times as well to take him seriously.

this may sound quite sad considering u guys have no problem getting bud every day, but i didnt have money for a while. i got some robo today too, so if i do get bud tomarrow, i will get totally and extremely fucked up with my tolerance level at 0. ill prolly see monsters and jump out a window!

u guys ever stop smoking for like 2 weeks, then toke up like a few grams all at once? how bout that AND 4oz of robo? id like to know what to expect.

[juggalo420]

weed and dxm(robo) is awesome. i suggest u smoke after you peak on dxm, itll make you really fucked up, like a million thoughts going through your head and you become really disaccociated.

[The S B]

smoke like 1/2 hour after you take the dxm then like every once in a while after that to keep it going it makes it so much better plus for some reason when you smoke you will feel it if you didnt before you smoked

[DarkFire]

i truely miss smoking. i got 2 say its really killing me inside. im so adicted. if i dont get my bud tomarrow, i will prolly cry, and its been many years the last time i did that. oh and my robo isnt the right kind, i got cough and cold, so it has an extra active, so ill have to return it. sigh.... im sick of these dealers. im just going to buy an ounce and be done with them for a long time.

[BOgart.bitch]

man i really feel for ya.. marijuana may not be physically addictive but it can get you in other ways. hopefully you will get hooked up soon.

[Nugs4Me]

If you're depressed becuase you're out of weed then you have a problem... Yeah not having bud when you want to smoke sucks... it's happened to me too often but life goes on. You seriously feel suicidal because you don't have any bud? That's bad, real bad. Maybe you should stay off it for a while. Cannabis isn't addictive physically just mentally... I think you caught it...

:(

[kyskunk3]

Wow man, you dont even know. You think not smoking bud for 2 weeks is bad, thats just weak. Get a life dude. Just think about the people that have actually been addicted to a harder drug like crack, meth, or herion. Withdrawl with that stuff doesnt even compare to not smoking bud for two weeks. Your lame, do something, dont think about it. sad...

[Nugs4Me]

Whao, :eek: a little harsh there... People are different from each other, even though you may not get withdraws or anything of the sort doesn't mean the other person will act the same way. People have a different tolarence to everything. Just chill. :cool:

[dog420]

If i dont get some soon i will seriously b suicidal.
You are joking right?

[BOgart.bitch]

Wow man, you dont even know. You think not smoking bud for 2 weeks is bad, thats just weak. Get a life dude. Just think about the people that have actually been addicted to a harder drug like crack, meth, or herion. Withdrawl with that stuff doesnt even compare to not smoking bud for two weeks. Your lame, do something, dont think about it. sad...

dude grow up. dont minimalize someone else's problem using worst case scenerios - of course, anytime anyone is going through something there is going to be someone out there somewhere going through something worse - oh well .. it's still affecting him in a bad way just as something could affect you in a bad way.. it shouldnt matter whether or not someone finds your reasons justified - what matters is that is what you feel.

addiction sucks when it comes to anything.. whether you're physically addicted or not - sometimes being mentally addicted is just as bad. we can use our minds to make our bodies feel certain things subconsciously - and when it comes to mental addiction people could get some serious phsyical symptoms as well just from their thought patterns.

[Buck268]

About the only person who needs to grow up in this thread is DarkFire. To even CONSIDER the thought of suicide because you can't smoke is udder absurdity. If the only thing that makes you want to live is smoking reefer, well, you need to find something, anything, else life has to offer. And there is a damn lot out there.

I'm hardly preaching to you man, hell I've been in your shoes before... I've had my slumps. And it was every bit as unenjoyable as you make it out to be, but if you'll allow me to provide some insight, I'd like to...

When you take a look at your life, and get depressed and want to take it away, step back. Just stop, and step back and take a look at your life as a whole. Maybe it does suck right now, maybe its god-awful. But is there any hope to mold your life into something you'd like? Sure it may be difficult, and it may take time, but you know what, the best things in life don't come so easily (to quote a Lynyrd Skynyrd song). Find something to work for. And get going! You've only one way to go, up ;)

Yeah man, I know how it feels to need herb to survive... And I know how it feels to kick that addiction too, so trust me when I say life is better when herb is there for pleasure not survival ;)

[robert42]

COME ON GET REAL DARK FIRE. THATS LIKE ME SAYIN IM GNA KILL MY SELF COS THE CORN ON MY TOE THAT IVE BEEN CHEWING ON THE LAST 4 YEARS HAS JUST BEEN SURGICALLY REMOVED!

IF U FEEL LIKE THAT SEEK HELP
U HAVE ISSUES
DNT SMOKE IF THIS IS THE CASE

PHYCOSIS!

[Reefer Rogue]

COME ON GET REAL DARK FIRE. THATS LIKE ME SAYIN IM GNA KILL MY SELF COS THE CORN ON MY TOE THAT IVE BEEN CHEWING ON THE LAST 4 YEARS HAS JUST BEEN SURGICALLY REMOVED!

Oh robert, how you slay me :D

I read on some f.b.i website some "facts" about marijauna it said:

"Marijauna causes you to be violent, clinically depressed and feel suicidle."

When i read that i laughed at their ignorance. Dark Fire its kids like you that make their ignorance seem not so ignorant at all...

[Dick Justice]

DarkFire, no offense to you or your situation, but I think you may have more problems than a simple lack of herb. I'd recommend some serious re-evaluation of what's going on in your life, and why you smoke pot in the first place.

The other possibility is that you've been smoking hardcore chronic and have become slightly addicted to cocaine.

[Nullific]

You're depressed because you don't have any marijuana?
Well I have too much of it and am $320 in debt.

Wanna switch lives for a while?

[kyskunk3]

Your name says it all. Dont even try to take that approach with me. I would never minimalize someone, trust me Im very compassionate. ITS HERB. If your getting to the point where when you dont have it you wanna die, theres something wrong. I admire your defense for him, but your defense doesn't do well against me. There's more to life than smoking marijuana, in most cases. And even in some cases where its used for medicine, for the most part its not a life and death situation if they use it or not. Also, for your information the only reason i used the example of crack, meth... is those are considered drugs. Ya, its tough not smoking for 2 weeks but c'mon. It's no where near hell and it sure is not worth killing yourself over. One more thing, to miss bogart bitch, "what matters is that is what you feel" its not about feeling. Trust me, after a while that will dissapate. You will be left feeling empty if your just all about the feeling. I understand women are more sensitive than guys but basing your feelings on everything its just gonna let you down eventually, for a while it will last but only for a while and then your left empty.

[ermitonto]

Don't fret so much about being out of weed. I'm about to take a week off of smoking to try to curb this tolerance (also I'm piss broke but that's another thing). If your dealer isn't getting weed to you, tell him you better get it real soon or he can't expect to continue business with you. There are other dealers out there, and you can even trust some of them to give you good deals and prompt delivery if you look hard enough. If your dealer can't be trusted to deliver the product he doesn't deserve your money.

As for working through the dry spell, if it's only going to be a few days just find some other things you enjoy doing. Read a good book, go for a walk, sleep half the day, play games...whatever passes the time. If you just focus on the fact that you can't smoke weed you're not going to be very happy, so try not to think about it too much and it won't be so bad. It'll be like all those years before you had your first toke when you never felt bummed because you weren't high. But when you do think about it, just remember that next time you smoke you are going to get royally FUCKED UP.

[Buck268]

I didn't smoke for almost 9 days recently... Picked up some poopy shwag the other day and got destroyed off 2 bowls :D

[DarkFire]

When i said suicidal, i just felt like it it, i ddint want to do it.
see i dont have much to do in the day... i do do much with friends or anything because its too cold outside to go anywhere.... so after school im basically bored as hell. im also not doing very good in school, so basically my life is stressful and boring. it wasnt like taht before though, when id get high it was only stressful, not boring. after i stopped i was even more stressed than ever and the boringness really stood out.
though today i bought some, and now im happy. thing is, cuz its been so long i got sooooo sick. whenever id move or open my eyes, i felt deeeply sick.

it just felt like the quality of my life significantly dropped, and it felt even worse than that. but now im good for a while.

[DarkFire]

Don't fret so much about being out of weed. I'm about to take a week off of smoking to try to curb this tolerance (also I'm piss broke but that's another thing). If your dealer isn't getting weed to you, tell him you better get it real soon or he can't expect to continue business with you. There are other dealers out there, and you can even trust some of them to give you good deals and prompt delivery if you look hard enough. If your dealer can't be trusted to deliver the product he doesn't deserve your money.

As for working through the dry spell, if it's only going to be a few days just find some other things you enjoy doing. Read a good book, go for a walk, sleep half the day, play games...whatever passes the time. If you just focus on the fact that you can't smoke weed you're not going to be very happy, so try not to think about it too much and it won't be so bad. It'll be like all those years before you had your first toke when you never felt bummed because you weren't high. But when you do think about it, just remember that next time you smoke you are going to get royally FUCKED UP.
thats the thing. i used to do those things, but high. now when i do them, its soooo dull. everything is just dull compared to before and it really stands out. but im fine now, i just worry about the next outage. i cant stop smoking though, i dont want to b more depressed. the long i am without it the worse.

[Buck268]

That sucks, man...

[Epic]

Your body becomes accustomed to the THC and produces less dopamine. When you stop smoking your body suffered from a lack of dopamine, and thus depression and suicide become prevalent.

Those that say weed is not bad for you at all are talking shit. Be safe though, and know the side effects.

[Phunk42]

so after school im basically bored as hell. im also not doing very good in school,

How about some homework? A little studying? Heres my suggestion... Dont smoke weed on weekdays at all, stick to homework and studying. On the weekend, smoke up...except sunday, study sunday too. It may sound hard but if you really went through with it then you would be doing much better in school, no more stress on school, and you still have weed, beer, whatever on the weekends.

I also promise that if you did do that, your weekends would be awesome, you would have such better times because its not something you do every freaking day.

[Looker]

COME ON GET REAL DARK FIRE. THATS LIKE ME SAYIN IM GNA KILL MY SELF COS THE CORN ON MY TOE THAT IVE BEEN CHEWING ON THE LAST 4 YEARS HAS JUST BEEN SURGICALLY REMOVED!

IF U FEEL LIKE THAT SEEK HELP
U HAVE ISSUES
DNT SMOKE IF THIS IS THE CASE

PHYCOSIS!

DUDE YOU CAN CHEW CORNS ON YOUR TOES...WHOOAA

[Looker]

AND REMEMBER, IF ALL ELSE FAILS

HAVE SOME ONE DO THIS TO YOU

[NextGen]

Very interesting thread. Ya know, I just about died from suicide when I was 16, well i'm typing right here right now, aren't I :)

Marijuana may not benifit everyone. That's said and done with.

It may do miracles for an abused child/teenager.

The mind is all you have (it's your world) and when someone like a parent (of all people)trys to destroy it. It's......... you have nothing :( . Your already dead and dont know it yet.

One of those pills will put you to sleep for 12 hrs. I took 24. Now listen up here's why I come to this board once in a while. Not a loving Gradmother, friend, counselor or god could of helped me but there was one thing that could of helped me make a better decision that night, and guess what that is "MARIJUANA".

I'm lucky to be alive. I just about lost my arm from this by sleeping on it but instead got quite a few stitches in my hand (i'm fine :) ).

Life's been great for 12 years ever since I met my next addiction, my girlfriend. It's like god felt sorry for me and gave me the greatest hottest coolest sweetest nicest girl in the world.

I been typing way to long but it's even good therapy for myself.

Take care everyone.
There will be days you cant find weed but till you do dont go crazy about it. You know this was going to happen. So deal with it and remember there's much more weed to be smoked yet. :D
I'm fine without weed but I'm not myself that's for sure. :rolleyes:

[ScarlettCrush]

sometimes life just sucks, and you need a little bump up into the stratosphere to remind you it doesn't always suckle so very much. Weed helps for that, and when you don't have it of course it becomes your focus. Lay off baby boy, he's just being a little dramatic is all. :p

[Darkneon420]

Dont worry man. Smoking bud is sneaky. It can turn into sick highs if you smoke too much. Course yall probiblly know that already, I sure do. Just keep smoking bud and relax. Dont live your life wondering when your going to get some weed. Thats not a way to live life! Just relax, chill, mellow out and everything will turn out just fine. peace out man! :)