missybit
03-31-2007, 11:22 PM
so (thursday) i smoked the last of what i had, thinking "no problem, i'll go pick something up tomorrow." but no.
friday i woke up in the worst IBS pain i've had in MONTHS. i don't think i've had an episode this bad in at least a year. it's hard to even describe. it feels like i've badly pulled all the muscles in my lower back, it burns, and every once in awhile i think there is something crawling around in my abdomen. I can't eat because everything makes me feel like i'm going to throw up. walking from the bed to the couch is an ordeal, and i don't want to even get started on how much time i've spent in the bathroom. if only the pain would just STOP for a few minutes. it's frustrating to finally be able to sleep, only to wake up and still be hurting. today is better in that i can sit up and focus enough to type something.
here's a good link about "invisible diseases" that i think some of you medicinal users will relate to: but you don't look sick (http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/2007/02/the_spoon_theory.php#more)
i'm smoking some resin to take the edge off. it doesn't help a whole lot with the pain, but at least i feel less stressed about it. i think this has convinced me to get my prescription card, which i've been putting off because i'm a bit paranoid. i'm not sure i need the government to know i smoke.
thanks for letting me rant a bit.
friday i woke up in the worst IBS pain i've had in MONTHS. i don't think i've had an episode this bad in at least a year. it's hard to even describe. it feels like i've badly pulled all the muscles in my lower back, it burns, and every once in awhile i think there is something crawling around in my abdomen. I can't eat because everything makes me feel like i'm going to throw up. walking from the bed to the couch is an ordeal, and i don't want to even get started on how much time i've spent in the bathroom. if only the pain would just STOP for a few minutes. it's frustrating to finally be able to sleep, only to wake up and still be hurting. today is better in that i can sit up and focus enough to type something.
here's a good link about "invisible diseases" that i think some of you medicinal users will relate to: but you don't look sick (http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/2007/02/the_spoon_theory.php#more)
i'm smoking some resin to take the edge off. it doesn't help a whole lot with the pain, but at least i feel less stressed about it. i think this has convinced me to get my prescription card, which i've been putting off because i'm a bit paranoid. i'm not sure i need the government to know i smoke.
thanks for letting me rant a bit.