IntrepidS
12-14-2004, 04:40 AM
Well guys, I have a little story I'd like to tell you. This isn't an easy thing for me to say to people but I think I can trust the people here and their judgement, you are after all, for the most part, very good people.
Anyway, lately I've been very upset with regards to my mom. This has possibly began on friday night at around 2 in the morning when I got home. I was at work until 10:30 and then I went to my friend's. It had also snowed a lot that night. Anyway, when I got home, my mom was yelling at me that she was really worried and she was very mad that I didn't call her.
You see the thing is that this is all related to my father. My father died days before I had turned 12, and I am now 17. Truthfully, he had commited suicide. He had left the house at night and drove over to some other mountain to the woods. When my mom woe up in the morning he wasn't there and she soon told me.
Anyway no need to go into the details but you get the idea. She's worried as fuck when I go off like that without telling her. Once after grade 7 when I was 13, me and my friend stayed downtown for an entire night without telling our parents.
This all leads to the fact that I don't treat my mother with enough respect. But I don't do that by being a bad kid or anything. I was never really like that. I'm just really really smart, maybe even a smartass, and she isn't. I use that, as well as the lack of a father in the house, to my advantage, mostly when we fight (which happens pretty often mind you). I use derogatory language sometimes (too often even), and I point out many things which are most definitly true but are not things that should be said, especially not to my mother. Realiszing that this happens for those reasons made me feel even worse, as it just occured minutes ago.
What probably bothers me most though, even to the point of being disturbing, is that after a night's sleep, all is forgotten. My mom hardly ever mentions stuff that happens between us when we fight. She never uses anything against me. On Friday night she told me that I have no idea what it is like to be considerate, which really, really hurts me. I'm very considerate towards my friends, at least I try to. I guess I don't give enough consideration where it's due. Still, telling me that had made me feel like shit.
Other then that, like I said, she forgets the arguments we have. And once she does she's pretty cool. We have pretty chill conversations and everything is cool, I smoke her riggs and she doesn't say anything, unless she hasn't realized yet, which would give me a heart attack of I found out was true.
Anyway, what are your comments? Do you have any advice to improve ,y relationship with my mother? I mean I'm pretty sure what I need to do and that is treat her with respect, although that is hard considering that I completely and totally outsmart her in every occuring situation. I want to discover more about her too, why she acts the way she does, why she's so damn careless. But she's my mother, and I do want to make sure you all know that I love her.
Anyway, lately I've been very upset with regards to my mom. This has possibly began on friday night at around 2 in the morning when I got home. I was at work until 10:30 and then I went to my friend's. It had also snowed a lot that night. Anyway, when I got home, my mom was yelling at me that she was really worried and she was very mad that I didn't call her.
You see the thing is that this is all related to my father. My father died days before I had turned 12, and I am now 17. Truthfully, he had commited suicide. He had left the house at night and drove over to some other mountain to the woods. When my mom woe up in the morning he wasn't there and she soon told me.
Anyway no need to go into the details but you get the idea. She's worried as fuck when I go off like that without telling her. Once after grade 7 when I was 13, me and my friend stayed downtown for an entire night without telling our parents.
This all leads to the fact that I don't treat my mother with enough respect. But I don't do that by being a bad kid or anything. I was never really like that. I'm just really really smart, maybe even a smartass, and she isn't. I use that, as well as the lack of a father in the house, to my advantage, mostly when we fight (which happens pretty often mind you). I use derogatory language sometimes (too often even), and I point out many things which are most definitly true but are not things that should be said, especially not to my mother. Realiszing that this happens for those reasons made me feel even worse, as it just occured minutes ago.
What probably bothers me most though, even to the point of being disturbing, is that after a night's sleep, all is forgotten. My mom hardly ever mentions stuff that happens between us when we fight. She never uses anything against me. On Friday night she told me that I have no idea what it is like to be considerate, which really, really hurts me. I'm very considerate towards my friends, at least I try to. I guess I don't give enough consideration where it's due. Still, telling me that had made me feel like shit.
Other then that, like I said, she forgets the arguments we have. And once she does she's pretty cool. We have pretty chill conversations and everything is cool, I smoke her riggs and she doesn't say anything, unless she hasn't realized yet, which would give me a heart attack of I found out was true.
Anyway, what are your comments? Do you have any advice to improve ,y relationship with my mother? I mean I'm pretty sure what I need to do and that is treat her with respect, although that is hard considering that I completely and totally outsmart her in every occuring situation. I want to discover more about her too, why she acts the way she does, why she's so damn careless. But she's my mother, and I do want to make sure you all know that I love her.